My husband of 5 years had been having at least a seven month online affair with some woman from a football fan website. I almost wish he'd had a one night stand...The emails and messages are nauseating to me! It ended when I confirmed it January 30th. We've been working hard to make our marriage work, but some days, like today, are more difficult than others...
I totally get that. I'm in the same boat as you but my husband had over 30 different women over the 5 years we've been together. I too wish he had just banged some random chick instead of having all these conversations and sexually explicit messages with all these women, finding them and reading it was the most disgusting thing I've ever had to see. I feel like I married a stranger. I hate the ups and downs. I hope you are having more good days than bad. The bad ones are always really bad for me but I've found coming on here and talking about it helps.
@lizziem333 How are you dealing? Any suggestions?
Thank you. So much of what I have seen has included, "I love you", and can't live without you, and he has said awful things about me! He is chronically ill, and I have been by his side throughout. In one email he tells her she is the reason he's alive! Absolutely sickening.
@Lostsincefindingout As a fellow illness supporter (My husband has epilepsy) who recently discovered something similar from my husband my heart goes out to you. I know just what you’re going through, the nerve of them to connect emotionally with a virtual stranger and give the one person THERE IN THE TRENCHES WITH THEM, their backside to kiss. It’s literally maddening.
Some days I honestly don't know how I'm not in a mental institution but I'm just taking one day at a time. That's pretty much all you can do. I found coming on here and letting out all my feelings helps a lot because I tend to internalize everything.
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@lizziem333 I’m hoping it helps! I appreciate the input!
Yes, I am sure I could have been committed in a mental institution a few times. I think many of us have been there. Seriously, it is crazy in my mind people should even have to deal with stuff like this, who is mentally ever ready to be screwed over. So feeling crazy is for sure part of it!