My mind is driving me crazy

how i got to this point i'm pretty sure is losing my twins. all i can think about is them and also waiting to try again to have another child. but i know i have to wait till jan. before trying again it just seems like it's for ever away. also with all my friends having kids it's kind have left me alone. being alone only give me more time to think about everything which is starting to make me crazy and now i can barely even sleep most nights now. what should i do?

trinitykat - take it one day at a time. I am sorry for your loss, and know that, unfortunately, only time can help. Don’t look at January as so far away, look at it as something really exciting, a new year and new start. Get yourself excited for the possibilities the new year brings and enjoy this time you have right now as best you can. Take a deep breath and see what each day brings. Good luck with everything, and let me know how you are doing.