I have not used this site in a while but now I need it more than ever. I do not know what to do. I feel really depressed. I don't even want to move. I just cry and cry and cry. I feel worthless and feel my family is falling apart. My dad got laid off from his job after working at that place for over 20 yrs. My mom has been depressed ever since we moved. That is about 10 yrs. This was just another thing to increase her depression. She hasn't been the same person I loved since I was little. My dad finally found another job however it doesn't seem this one will last. They transferred him to another office where he is covering someone for maternity leave. They already replaced him with someone else at his old job. My mom is angry everyday. She even walks around saying she can't deal with it anymore. She says how she wants to kill herself. I feel like my whole family is falling apart. I'm scared. I'm afraid to mention any of my emotions because when I do my mom just gets angry at me and says she can't feel anything without affecting anyone. She belittles my emotions and makes me feel guilty. I hate being at home cause everyday is an argument. Every time I come home I hate it. I don't know if this is normal. I'm afraid to ask for help because my mom would be angry. I don't want to stay anywhere else temporarily because I don't want to affect my mom's image. I do go to college. But even then she calls me telling me about every new issue. I can't take it. I can't move away because I have no money. She never let me have a job because she said I had to take care of my brothers. Even now that I am in college and my brother's in high school she doesn't let me have a job. The only person keeping me going is my boyfriend. We have been together for almost four years. Whenever I am with him I'm happy. But I don't want to burden him with my emotions. I don't want to lose him cause he's what I have to look forward too. I'm so lost. I don't know who to talk too. I don't want to portray my mom in a negative way I don't want to offend her. But I need help. I feel so hopeless.
My mother's depression and emotional abuse and my family's financial issues are affecting me greatly
Maybe try talking to them. Tell them exactly what is on your mind. Another suggestion is maybe try getting a job to help you get out. I am trying my best I can, because I am only 16. I also hate living at my house and can't wait to turn 18. I have a place to live when I do too. I have really bad anxiety so if you can help let me know. Well hope this helps. :)
i know the feeling about being around miserable family. my parents bicker everyday over the smallest things and you can just feel their tension creeping inside of you too.
but in the end pg, this is YOUR life and if others don't look after you then you have to do it yourself.
how can your mom tell you not to work now if you're already on college? and could you just tell her to not call and complain all the time?
xxx