the thing is, i've failed for 4 years to surrender and put down the bottle, now i get it. i'll have a year november, this time i made myself deal with the raw emotions and didn't drink over them, wowwee it was hard! i don't have that pain now, i swear i look at the old timers and they are so freakin happy, i believe that will be me someday. i have a good relationship with God as he lets me understand him in my way. my past flashed like a movie and i couldn't get rid of it it hurts! now? it like lighly flickers but everytime the emotions of pain come with each flash. i know it's God's timing not mine, it just sucks because i have so much pain in my past, it will take forever!!!!
Hey Boticelli,
I hear you have a lot of pain in your life. Pain is a very difficult thing to feel free of. Have you considered therapy for it. i am unsure as to what caused you all this pain, but I am sure that it is staying with you everyday and you are carrying it with you.
Keep talking here hun
Love to you
Moongal x
Boticelli,
Congratulations on your sobriety. I admire you. I use alcohol as a bad attempt to cope with anxiety and depression. My counselor wants me to go to AA but I don't know if I'm ready. I feel so nervous and I just can't picture myself never drinking again. I am only 23 years old and I just feel so lost. I don't know where to turn. I went to online AA meetings this week and I vented and told my story. It felt good but all that talk about alcohol made me really want to drink. How have you learned to overcome this?? What are you strategies you could share? I would appreciate it!