My sister went in for her follow up with her psychiatrist today with my Mom present at the appointment.
My sister told me how my Mom took out a graduation picture of our oldest sister, who just recently graduated with her Masters Degree. Then she said my Mom spoke of our youngest sister who is a medical doctor. What was the relevance of my Mum talking about all of this at my sister's follow up psychiatric appointment? My sister is trying to get her mental health back.
Umm...but what about your 2 middle children?? It sounded as if Mum had nothing to say about my sister and I. Like she had nothing to be proud of , of her 2 middle children. It made me feel a bit bad for a short while.
I was going to confront my Mom about it but I thought to myself, "What's the point?" "Waste of time and energy". I knew I was only going to end up in tears because her actions today came across as if my sister and I our not worth of praise.
My Mum does care about me but sometimes I do think she is more preferential when it comes to my oldest and youngest sisters who are more academically advanced than me and my other sister. My other sister and I do have some college education with my other sister have more qualifications and experience than I do. Regardless, that Mom didn't praise her, I really admire my sister. She really good on giving advice, creativity and conflict resolution.
LESSON LEARNT: Don't look to others for praise. Be proud of whatever accomplishments you've made; big or small. I have a lot to be proud of; the degree I obtained in college wasn't easy and was a huge challenge in many aspects. Many days I wanted to give up but I aimed for stick-ability. If nobody wants to pat you on the back, YOU DO IT YOURSELF because you know you are worth it and deserve it. Toot your own horn if nobody else will.