MY STORY. I left school 2 years ago in 10th grade, I knew everyone in my grade, i was relatively ok with people, but it was a real mental challenge, in school, i had like 100 friends, i left school, but then i became isolated, my only friend became myself, but i am also my only enemy, i dont know how i havent gone completely insane, i think i might have, but i guess i was born insane because i just feel the same, as soon as left it was like i never even existed, i would go back to visit my old friends, no one knew who i was. i constantly think, think about it when you are going on a plane for the 1st time, are you thinking about landing safely or do you think about crashing, especially living in NY after 9/11 i don't think anyone could ride an airplane with that kind of fear. I don't like to talk about my life, i know its alot easier then probably all of you but its all i really knew, i don't really remember anything that was good when i was a kid, i just remember the fights my mother and father had, and i'll never forget the look my father gave me, it was like starring into the eyes of a demon. He was a correction officer who worked over at rykers island, So i rarely even saw him to begin with, all i had really was my mother and sister, my mother raised me to never give up, never submit when hell has you in a choke hold, she taught me to never be scared, physically i am not scared but no one can change the way you think, so my mind was messed up, I was born with hypothyroidism, I take a Synthroid pill every day, This is something i never like talking about because it is a very stressful thing to deal with, Im 17 i have been to thousands of blood tests, i have to constantly go to a doctor, but it is ok i am thankful that the hypothyroidism was caught because i learned what would have happened if they never found out i had it, i would actually be dead because i was born with it, it didnt develop later on. Hypothyroidism is a long term life ruining medical issue, It isnt cancer, but it is a hard thing to deal with/ talk about, especially in boys, it is more of a common illness in girls, it is actually rare-ish in men, figures i got it right. I'm sure you could probably tell that my mind is all over the place, I can't write what i dont think right away. My parents got separated when i was 7, that was 10 years ago. My mom is the only one that took care of me, i am very protective of her. Long story short my dad had girlfriends, my mom had boyfriends, but i feel really uncomfortable around them, my dad made me talk to his girlfriends daughter, but i didnt want to, because i am scared of getting him mad, or saying no to him because that look he gave me is always there, i don't really like some of the things he likes but i hang out with him just so we doesn't whine, because i don't want to deal with it, You ever feel like you just want to be the person people noticed but dont really mess with then being the center of attention. I guess you would call it neutral, i always think of bad things, or crazy things like my mind is a city, my thoughts are driving on roads, going on their paths, but i live in NYC, so you know they never sleep. Then they hit a road block, but they have to constantly move or else the roads clogged, thats just my way of explaining thoughts that wont stop. It's a light story, i have nothing compared to alot of people, i shouldn't really be "complaining" about it, sorry.
It is far from everything, but this time i'm talking about me. Sorry for the length x.x
@drewfcNot lengthy pretty good writting indeed. Im commenting because in some aspects I can relate to your story at your age but like you said good people have an interesting story the good always suffer and become stronger warriors this I told a friend on here. When I was about your age I had friends I was the quiet girl that girl that always writes yes that was me I slowly isolated myself due to the fact that I felt different from everyone else I was bullied 2sd to 11th grade hmm I knew I was different I was adopted within my family which im grateful but certainly resentful towards my biological mother she didnt want me, my father left when she found out she was pregnant with me anywho she has her own demon she deals with. But back to isolation sorry I ramble as well I was a teenager feeling different from everyone else I then isolated a bit with my own family I was the outsider the younger sister who helped with older sisters kids to watch I always wanted to know what was my journey why do I, isolate and misunderstood by my family maybe even by friends, friends came and went in my life im use to people leaving already as horrible as that sound. But you’re not alone kid ad I know how you feel fast forward to now im a new mom of a precious little seven month old boy, single mother struggling my sons father doesnt help thats a long story. I had a male best friend he left he got involved when wasnt soppose too . Ive been through alot of hurdles alot of pain and this is a small part im writting im far from perfect but hang in there kid stay strong never change and stay humble remember we are warriors !
I'm sorry for what has happened to you, it's people like you that inspire me to hold my head up and stay strong, it makes me smile knowing you used your life to make you stronger, and never quit, I can tell you must be a great mother, your truly inspiring, thank you for sharinga bit of your story with me, Im greatful, stay awesome :)