Hi,
This is a 1st for me I have been suffering from this disorder for over a year now...it's been hard I always thought I never had a problem ...ever since I started binging (late at night) and purging after wards I knew it was problem but still in denial. Funny thing is I am a psychology student so I know about this disorder. I have always been on diets and I used to exercise now I'm too lazy and always tired i guess it's due to having bulimia.
I always felt fat and I've always had low self-esteem issues...I never felt I look good especially because my skin's always suffered from breakouts and now I have scars. I always feel like people are watching me judging me. My friends always say I'm skinny and I look fine but I don't feel that way . my low self-esteem has effected me in all ways of my life I lack confidence in doing a lot of things and I feel I am never good enough and by controlling my body I feel that's one thing that makes me feel better but there's always that sense of guilt (don't know you understand). What I want is to recover but on my own...hopefully some of you can give me insight
p.s. is it common to lose hair and will it ever grow back when you recover? how long does recovery take? do you get acne from bulimia?
oh honey i'm so sorry your going through all this, i know how difficult it. there are wonderful people in the ed groups that ccan answer all your questions and help walk you thru the recovery process. i'm not a member of and ed group as my illnesses vary. i can comment on hair loss in my situation. i had it when i was young due to stress. now at 52 mine loss is due to hereditary issues as well as the meds that i've been taken. but you hang with us here on the site you'll find wonderful healing and peace along your journey.
Hi I have suffered from bulimia also. I have always had a food problem I eat for all reasons happy, sad, depressed, joy etc... But mostly I eat to feel good from deep issues of low self worth then I feel guilty and purge or over workout and that is exhausting. the best solution I have found is a 12 step program like Overeaters Anonymous where you find all sorts of people with eating problems who have recovered. Also the fellowship gives warmth and love and understanding. I find I eat to cover up emotions but I need to work the steps to heal myself and then bingeing , and purging are not necessary. Im here for you! Here is a website for more information:http://www.oa.org/ go to this site and search around. Together we can lick this thing.