I was married 22 years and now my husband and I are divorcing. I caught him multiple times texting and emailing various women in a sexual manner. I am just so upset that I still have feelings for him. We have two wonderful sons ages 10 and 15. I just feel like such a looser. I also met him when I was very young so the thought of dating freaks me out. Will this pain ever go away. I am not sleeping well and I just want to stay in bed.
Well, of course you are depressed! You'd be abnormal if you weren't.
If possible, take some time for yourself to grieve. But then, make sure you see a lawyer so that those lovely sons are taken care of, financially.
The emotional toll is going to take some time to pass. But please don't beat yourself up for still having feelings for him. This does not mean you are a loser. This means you are a caring human being.
As far as you dating, the time for that is not now. You will know when it is, but that's the least of your worries right now.