no matter what i do, no matter how hard i try, everything always comes crashing down around me! for the first time in as long as i can remember i had 2 days in row that were good... until the end of the second (last night).. i swear my older sister just knows when things are going good for me and just has to find a way to tear me down again! this time it is supposedly my fault that her ex husband has a new girl!!! I dont even know her! but its my fault somehow! so like when we were kids she got me to hurt myself! everything i have ever done in her eyes was never enough!
she is the most unhappy controlling person i have ever met but i love her she is my sister.... therefore she sets me back more than anyone! more and more lately i feel like doing her a favor and removing myself from the world!!! she has been telling me since i was little i should never have been born... maybe shes right and im just prolonging the inevitable!
That is NOT true. Believe me, I know all about unsupportive, crazy, cruel sisters. You CANNOT let her create an image of yourself in your head. I love my sister dearly but even when I was a little kid she made me feel like I wasn't good enough. I could never compare to her at anything. But after a while I had to realize that it wasn't her right to tell me what to do or what kind of person I am. You can't let yours do the same to you. It's not helping either of you. She can't control your views of yourself or the actions you take.
thanks! and i know i shouldnt let her get to me! its like she has some kind of extreme hold over me! and she makes it so hard for me! i swear she has like a freakin "spidey sense" or something for when i am actually doing good! she just has to get under my skin! i am trying to tell myself that we are grown now and she shouldnt be able to still do this to me.... and everytime i start to break away from her she finds some **** way to drag me back!! hopefully one day i will be able to wiggle out of this **** hold she has on me! thank you again!!
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I just wanted to tell you that you that there are people out there that care about you. So don't think that everything is lost, cause it's not. You have to believe that you will get through this, and that things will get better. I don't know every detail of your situation, but if you can, try to go out and get away from your sister, try to do activities that will get this situation out of your mind. I have very difficult times in my life too, and I am not a very religious person but I have to say that in those days when I have felt so depressed, I just felt that after I prayed I just felt much better, and I felt stronger. Hope to hear from you soon.
thanx! and i am tryin to break away! i am not a religious person either! somedays i wish i was but its just not in me! but i do thank you for the idea! i am always up for ideas!!! feel free to keep them comin!! and im doin better today! i cant let her keep this cruel hold over me! im 25 and i dont need her treating me like the "baby" anymore!!!!
it really makes me smile knowing you all have reached out to help me and i hope i can at some point return the favor!
Your sister sounds like mine. I don't see mine that often but when I do she always seems to find a way to cut me down. I recently decided that I don't care what she thinks of me and finally said something about how bad I feel about myself. I was not quite able to tell her how much she upset me at Christmas time. It is hard be we need to work on not letting our sisters have any control.