Never thought I would have the need to search for such groups, but here we are. From being someone who has always felt pure joy in helping others, I am at the wanting end now. Then again maybe I am just over reacting and things will eventually work out. I am sick and tired of waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting. I have strived so hard to achieve my ambitions, my dreams, and yet I am still so far. I do not even know if I am making sense through my words. I am not a failure but I certainly feel like one. I smile but deep inside I just want to be alone. I just want to scream, to shout, to cry. I do not even know how to feel right now. I hate interacting with my own family, even though I know they love me. I know they wish well for me, but I just cannot face them, for I am a failure. I am sorry if I am being too much.
Well, first let me welcome you to SG Support. I'm sorry your feeling so bad. So maybe your feeling as if you've hit rock bottom emotionally. And no one is "Being to much" when they come here. So take a breath and give us some details as to why you feel the way you do. Also, and think about this. If someone came to you and said what you have said here. What words of wisdom/advice would YOU give them? If you've hit rock bottom emotionally, guess what? You can only go up.... not down. Often people know exactly what they need and want to do. But they also need to hear others advice, even though they actually knew it to begin with. Let us know the what and why of how your feeling. And then we can add our thoughts and advice. You'll have a lot of feed back and support here. Give us a chance.
@constructionjim For the 1st time in my life I feel I have found something I can truly connect with. Something I can work for day and night, and am working for it. However, I have been trying since last 5 years without any result, while seeing many others achieving them, without the effort that I put into it. So then all these questions arise. Why am I the one that always fails? Why am I the one that cannot succeed even though I am struggling for it? So much so that even if someone jokingly says I failed, I feel misreable. I know if I were my younger self and I had asked myself these questions, I would have answered that be confident and work for it, as hard work always pays off. You know stuff like that. However, now its just like for every motivational sentence I have 10 negative scenarios to tell myself. The worst of which is the fear that I will never be able to achieve it.
I never thought I would be here either but here I am. I can definitely can relate to the family loving you but not really wanting to interact. I definitely feel lost and without purpose after working my entire life to reach my dreams.
@Junior726 I am sorry if I came out on the wrong footing. Its just that things have been really depressing for me, as of late. All those things that I enjoyed, in the past, I no longer do. I just wanted to be secluded, sometimes even wanting to drown deep inside somewhere, never to be seen again.
Feelings are complicated, and being the one in need from time to time is okay, having these thoughts can be overwelming and can stuck with you for a while, but it's important to not let them take the best of you.
You may have not be where you want, but sure you have come far, it's okay if you need a little stop to feel better, slow down, and see back on what you have done, what you have achieved.
Not everybody would travel the path you have been walking and reach were you are.
I am currently in school for social work, and let me just say, those feelings are COMPLETELY VALID. Feeling like you're always helping someone else but unsure of how to help yourself. Somewhere along the lines, I thought that going back to school in my 30s with 2 kids and a whole husband was a grand idea. LOL. It is very tough, but I do find joy when the grades come in. Sometimes we need a little (positive) instant gratification to remind ourselves of what we are capable of. Maybe reaching out to one family member that you feel like you can relate to the most and sharing a bit of what you're going through will help. Go into with little to no expectations if at all possible. Sometimes people can relate to us more than we think. Clearly your family is of some importance to you. One family member being able to understand is better than none if those are relationships that you want to improve!