Hi everone,
I am Moonstone and I am new here at SupportGroups.com. I came here hoping to find someone anyone willing to just leans and Support me. 7 year a go I was kid nape and keep as a sex slave for 2 weeks. When I get out I wand to counseling and was doing better. Back in Janery after the father of my baby left me and the 2 kids I begin getting flash back of things that happen and they would not go away so I try to go back to Counseling and long story share they would not take me because I could not find a sitter. I need help and can't get it any ware ells because any ware I go my 1 year old has to come with me. I try holding this pain in before and it end up in my using drugs and Drinking I been clean off of both now for 20 month and I don't wand to slip back into those bad way I need to let this out so bad I just don't have a safe places I'm desperate is this a safe places?
Hi Moonstone i am pretty new to this also but have found much support, if u ever need to talk you can message me and maybe we'll be able to help oneanother you.ll find that people really do care, I send you my prayers and strength for your hard times :-)
Frederick
Thank you Frederick,
Do you have any wisdom to share with me about working with the flash back? I don't know what to do about them all I know is I wand to dill with it and move on with my life. I'm sick of feeling trapped and sick of reliving it over and over and over again.
hello moonstone
im sorry all this has happened to you. Id love to be there and be one of your supporters its tough goin through all of that and now still dealing with it adding kids into the picture. flashbacks are hard to deal with its something that many of us on the site have to go through including myself. how do you ground yourself when you have these flashbacks?
if you ever feel like talkin you can message me. ill understand just like many people on this site will, because we have been through stuff thats close to what you have although not the same. have you ever talked about it? or have you written it down?
anyway big hugs and good thoughts headed your way
with lots of care and support
be safe
dahlia
Darline_Dahlia
Thank you so much I have just finish ready you post and replaying to you it seem we are feeling much the same way. (Hugs)
how do you ground yourself when you have these flashbacks?
I tell myself repeatably that I am save and nothing bad is real Happening to me. I seem to be able to come out of a flash back but they will not stop. I know it time to heal those member but I don't know how to go about it.
have you ever talked about it?
I can talk about the first port when the tack me what they did before putting me in the van. But what happen in those 2 weeks....... I can't I don't wand to face it don't wand to see it...... don't wand to dill with it..... Just wand to run away hid and forget it ever happen. That say I know I can not hid that I have to dill with it I just don't know how and ever time I try to bring in up with friends or family it like it been 7 year get over it all ready. I've never toll anyone way the chose me to take..... They wand to bit who I was born to be out of me.... they wand me to change the way I am..... They don't change that those no matter what I am still that.
there are different ways to ground yourself like have music playing thats calm or do little things to make yourself feel safe i put stuff in front of the door and close the blinds everyone is different
and yea talking about it is tough..... i can tell people that i was forced into prostitution but i cant tell them what they did to me. and i can tell people little things but my family dont know they would blame me fore it and would call me more of a ***** then they think i already am. i havent told anyone so i understand why you havent
ill be here if you need to talk you dont have to talk about what happened just if you ever wanna talk bout your day really anything you want ill be here
Well Moonstone what I would agree on is what Dahlia said, when those thoughts start coming on, think of things that are pleasant that make you happy, gaze upon your children and see the beauty and innocence and love they will give to you unconditionally, I am here and many others also, would be more than happy to be one of your supporters, just message me and I'll help :-)
Frederick
darlin_dahlia , Thank you. I can't tell you how much it mean to have someone understand and be there. I had a long talk with someone last night and toll them something about that time I have not toll anyone. I feel better for doing it a little shaky but better.
Frederick, Thank you for you help. I'm feeling better today not so over walled.