Hey everyone,
I'm new to any sort of online group. Seems pretty strange to write something so anonymously.
Anyway, a little back ground...
I have been bulimic for about 12 years. I started off insidiously but over the years grew to take over large parts of my life. I was able to stop for about a year and a half but somehow have ended up here again. Lately it has really been affecting my day to day life. I have been isolating and letting all of the other things in my life fall through the cracks in favour of binging and purging. I stay up late, procrastinate on studying and projects all just to vomit more money and health down the toilet.
It makes me irritable and depressed. And lonely. Definitely lonely. That only positively reinforces the B/P cycle. What a mess. I just want this out of my life. Out so that I can start living and really enjoying it.
So, that's me. Not sure if I am strong enough to make any committments to stop right now but I think this is a good first start.
Akw,
welcome to support groups! You are right, this is a great start on the road to recovery. An even better start is you realizing you have a problem and that somewhere down the road you want it out of your life!
Keep writing! It really helps. So many people here relate to your struggles- I know I found it comforting to find I wasn't alone.
Thinking of you
allee
welcome akw... i'm in the same boat. been B. for about 15-20 years though... i can only imagine the toll its had on my body.. i feel the same way about destroying the body i work out and just tossing soooooooooo much $$$ down the toilet! its really ridiculous.
thanks for joining and try to take baby steps. i'm getting good support from this site and we all have to continue to battle this disease...
you can also send people private notes if there are private items you want to share with just a select few... i've done that and its very useful.
take care,
caroline