I am having a horrible time lately as my boyfriend and I have split and I feel like I am going to go crazy. Just want to get help.
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Hi alafair, I understand when you say that you feel like you are going crazy because of your breakup. When I was like that I didn't really know which way was up. Did he hate me? Did he even love me when he said he did when we were together or was it some ruse to appease me? The questions in my head just kept going on and on. I have the feeling that that's what is going on in your mind right now.
Living the life as a BPD'r is not fun or easy but it can get easier. There is a life beyond BPD, I've experienced it. It takes alot of practice and alot of work but I got past it. Once getting past it I still had to practice what I learned and I didn't hold on to that and I backslid some. But believe me, it feels so good to not have the label of BPD and have the freedom of not feeling all those feelings come barging down on you all the time.
Healing takes time both for your relationship with you and your boyfriend and for your BPD. I believe that you can do it.