Hey all, I am new to this.... so take it easy on me.
Let's start with the basics. I have PTSD. I have also bitten my nails and cuticles since I could walk. I also pick at/trim my toe nails to next to nothing. I chew on the insides of my cheeks/lips, and I don't mind the taste of the blood. I pick my face until it bleeds. I've ended relationships because of a fight started because I was told to stop and I wouldn't. I sometimes feel the compulsion so strong that I don't engage my 1 year old daughter as I should. I borderline ignore her, because I am so caught up in picking or biting my nails. I avoid leaving the house, and don't unless I have to. I have even almost called in sick to work. I am embarrased, worthless, weak, paranoid that everyone can tell, guilty, ashamed, and horrified, yet even the blood pouring off of my face, covering my hands, and myself screaming at myself to stop is not enough to get me to stop.
I am at rock bottom, and I don't know what to do.