so tired and fed up i think sometimes its me with the problem and not the other half, i sit here feeling sick with worry and for what because obviously he dont care about whats going through my head. all week i felt like something was going to happen and strangely it is slowly and i dont know what i can do to stop it. hes been real distant pushing me away not coming to bed the wine is down to most of it but then he drinks constantly anyway am used to that (hes an alcoholic), i get two nights off per week hes been sleeping on the sofa saying hes not sleeping at night but when am working he does (i work from home) so think hes making up an excuse, tonight hes woke up and gone for a walk at half 3 in the morning sick of the constant not knowing where i am i feel hes hiding something but he aint that kinda bloke but he makes it so hard for me to keep believing him. i know he will come back and more than likely go back to sleep but ill still be left here wondering where hes been and for what i sometimes sit and question why i love him so much because all he keeps doing is hurting my feelings but i know i cant live without him or he would have been gone a long time ago. IN TEARS !!!
well i knew it he walks in as though its normal ... my life so sucks right now i hate it
Sometimes it feels like the hurt is all we know to embrace. I've been in relationships like this. You must do what is best for you, and it's time for you to make YOU happy. I know how difficult it is to not worry about him - but you and your health and happiness are important. Take care and hold tight.