Not doing so great today. My doctor's office called to confirm my ultrasound and HSG procedure appointment for tomorrow afternoon. He thinks I might have PCOS. They found a cyst during my last ultrasound, and this ultrasound/ HSG is to confirm diagnosis.
All I've ever wanted was to start a family of my own. I've always done things the right way. I've never smoked, done drugs or had alcohol. I've taken care of my body, respected it even. Yet, right now, I feel like everyone around me is pregnant, giving birth or posting pictures of their newborns. I'm happy for them— but mixed in with that is resentment, anger, and deep hurt that I feel like I can't share with anyone.
I'm terrified about tomorrow. I don't really know what to expect, and I'm wondering if their is even a point. What's the point of being poked and prodded if I'm not going to be able to have a baby anyways?