Okay, so before I finally enter my recovery stage, I keep feeling the need to confirm I have HOCD or I'm in denial. Is this HOCD?: The need to constantly check for reassurance, noticing the same gender more, having unwanted/intrusive thoughts related to both the same sex and HOCD in general, doubt of my sexuality, slightly confused towards my opposite sex attractions (Only in the last 24 hours) and I also had a weird fantasy yesterday involving a guy and I'm not sure how I felt about it; yet I did feel really down and gloomy after it [I am also 14 btw, but I understand the same sex thoughts can be puberty, I'm 14 years of age]
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To 'enter you recovery stage' you need to accept that it could not be hocd. I'm not going to tell you whether I think what you have described is hocd or not but I think you know the answer
They key is to not care, fight the urge to prove anything to OCD. Compulsions must go, no asking reassurance questions, no ruminating, no checking porn, attraction, feelings, arousal etc etc. you need to learn to not answer those questions or prove those bad thoughts wrong. Because no truly gay person in the world has OCD "for months" about their sexual orientation and then happen to magically turn gay. Gay people fear what they might experience when coming out. You and I and everyone else here had those natural attractions to the opposite sex all along. It's as natural as a gay person loving their same sex attractions.