Im an empty glass vase full of nothing but fear and deppression. I am on the edge of the shelf about to fall..but when?
Am I imagining this?
Or maybe im crazy.
Questions fill my mind.
I think i'm about shatter.
I think i'm about to fall.
But why?
Poetry is my only way out.
I can not speak the words in my mouth.
Resisting is my strength.
Why can I not speak through communication as in speaking through my mouth.
Why wrighting.
Am I wrong?
Am I different.
Should I not be?
I feel like I am losing everything that is important to me.
You said:" Resisting is my strength". Hold on to that and in the meantime, pray. I do not know if you're a Christian or you believe in anything, but trust me, pray to God/Jesus to help you out of this awful situation. You have nothing to lose and a lot to gain. I am an old man who, for years, after Viet Nam, I was depressed, lonely, detached from the world and no one to talk to. After almost thirty years,one day, as I was driving home from work, I just looked out the windshield and asked God" Lord, I can't go on like this anymore, please help me." That was back in 1994. Something that many so called experts could not figure it out. Medication after medication, shots, sessions with the shrink and no positive results. All it took, was a bit of trust and faith and God took away everything that had total control of my life. Now, I can tell you honestly, feel free. Let me know how you do. May God bless you and help you in this struggle.
thank you very much and yes i do believe in god i am catholic. I have the same problem you did meds and more meds tests depression shrinks . nothing helps but god is my only way out