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trick
this is a highly emotive subject and im sure that we all know how we got places with hindsight but life is a tad messy even painful along the way.
we tend to reach out for human contact trustingly and cant possibly know how others will react to our harmless words untill we are in that situation often too late cos thats where the problems start.
its allso true that what is one mans trash is anothers treasure so we are sailing into the unknnown without a rudder or sat nav to lead the way.
in the changing society we live in noone knows what outcome will be caused by mentioning silly things only the other day an aquaintance thought the boys were fostered cos of their colour not that they were bona fide members of the family although the next generation, this caused my grandsons great problems and we found ourselves having to discuss something that had never arisen in their lives before, upsettin the mother and making the father question his choices. and all because of a narrow minded bigot my boys suffered.
so its not just what people say but the concept of sight and jumping to conclusions
loving thoughts and positive vibes
D :)
Well said D!!
I often spell things incorrect to simulate how they are commonly said among average people, or just to be funny.
Quite true People should be allowed to tell their story as they see fit. I thought of that as I wrote that. Sorry I over estimated the open mindedness Of but a few of the folks here.
I had no intention of upsetting any one. It was just a thought.
cmw582 if you feel that you need further clarification of what I've been through to conciser my self an equal here. Please feel free to contact me in private and I'll be happy to tell you about 50 years of lessons learned the hard way.
love and respect for all
Patrick L.
Well said D!!
trick
Or does your ego demand to be proven superior in public supposedly so others will praise you for being better?
Do you honestly think this is the type of behavior that will draw honest sincere people to befriend you?
Love Patrick
well this is a lively post isnt it?
loving thoughts and positive vibes
D :)
OH dear!!! That was too cute D:)
I literally laughed out loud a whole bunch!!
You put a big smile on my face, what a great
way to start the day 
Patrick L.
trini
i dont think seeing someone i havent seen since my girls were tiny tots at the school gates with my grandsons was leading with any injuries apart from the basic good manners of "how are u" and " is this the next generation" sadly it was her response that caused the problems, not the conversation itself and if we had met five minutes later no of it would have happened as the boys would be thru the doors and out of sight,
so forgive me for naively thinking i could greet an old aquaintance with delight and have things turn sour which was noones fault at the end of the day, just an unfortunate choice of words on her behalf
loving thoughts and positive vibes
D :)
trick
u have to have a laugh sometimes :)
loving thoughts and positive vibes
D :)
D.
Sorry I wasent more articulate in my hurt lodged rant.
What I meant is I would not enter into a potential relationship with someone I never met before with all my weaknesses showing. My bad.
T.
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Obviously I'm a clueless moron that has no idea what I'm talking about. This other person is much better than I am and everyone should realize That after much trauma and hardship many many years in recovery and studying Psychology and eastern philosophy I have not learned a thing. So take his word for it I'm Stupid and everybody look to that person for guidance. because obviously there way is better.
Somebody slap me if I post on this thread again....
This site is meant to be supportive and helpful only. Can we please keep it that way.
trini
u arent bad and i quite understand where u are coming from but sadly the world isnt black and white its more shades of greys.
once again lets agree to difer :)
loving thoughts and positive vibes
D :)
and this site is supportive so please can we get back to supporting people thanx
D :)
yess we can D.!
It's about time everyone woke up and got on the computer. I'll be honest and tell you all I'm about 5 weeks out on a methadone withdrawel. And, well the stories of addiction sometimes bores me. Especially my own. Recovery, now, thats a different matter. And I will freely admit that the peskiest symptom I'm having right now is agoraphobia. Can't yet bring myself to drive or go much further than my front steps. So, yes D., there are those of us who do really need support. Even if it's only retraining my brain by waking up the synapes to type faster. Again, just another of my weird theories.
But no, truly it's my only communica with others these days. Maybe, that's why I write so much.
Peace, trini
trini
im glad u write a lot it makes it easy for people to see where u are coming from and what makes u tick. and im glad that u are able to retain your brain even if nothing else at the moment.
so u cant get out and about much at the moment how are u filing your time? our eldest went thru a bout of not leaving the house after she gave birth, let me tell u ocd a new born and pnd is no fun but we survived not sure with brains intact but it was funny looking back on those days, although at the time it was horrendous to try and motivate her to do anything at all, she washed the bottles to an inch of their lives (the ocd in full swing) listlessly saw to the baby (pnd at its best) and cried buckets at the thought of leaving the house and all those were a good day.
let me tell u without the computer i would have been counting the patterns on the wall paper. are u gettin help for it?
keep writing hon
as always
loving thoughts and positive vibes
D :)
Dear D.
Thanks for taking an interest in my withdrawel symptom of agoraphobia. Yes, I am recieving help for it. Unfortunately, it is in the form of Klonopins. Which, not only don't help, I AM TRYING TO BE IN RECOVERY. So I only take 1/2mg. for my anxiety attacks. And I'm hooked up with a local agency which provides a case worker and a shrink in case I fall apart completely. Actually what I do that helps me is try to support others thus not thinking about my deficits today. I have a Bach.degree in Social Work, so I try and give the sanest support I know how.
I also need to keep telling myself this fear is a trick of my brain to get it some methadone. It (my brain) is telling me I can't trust the outside world, that I am losing control of my reality but it would all be o.k. if I go and get my meth.
I refuse to give in. Keep telling myself: "This too will pass"
On the up side, I did go outside tonight and rake some leaves. Which the tidel event to that was having to ask my neighbor for a rake to borrow. OhhSPOOOOky Spooky.
I'm now back in my safety zone and may be here all night.
Again, thanks D., for your concern.
Fair winds, Trini
trini
wow hon u asked for a rake and managed to do the leaves good for u, i know u probably think its a small step but its huge, more importantly u survived it and lived to write the tale, our child is working again but we still have to go get her occasionally, total chaos when we only have one driver home, but who would want life to be easy??
so what aspect of social work did u branch off into then?
my sis in law is the one responsible for us being foster parents plus the fact we couldnt carry to full term, and mum was into the gereactric side of things so which is your trade?
loving thoughts and positive vibes
D :)
Domestic,
Just a quick line to advise you that I now have a new tag. It’s Trina. Due to a glitch in the system (them or mine,I don’t know) I had to start a whole new account. Sans Trini. Oh well, trini was about talked out anyway.
The branchs of Social Work I concentrated on was Mental Health and Adolescent development. Right out of college, 1994, I jumped into the deep water right away by working and living in inner city Detroit working with middle school gang members. I worked at the first established Charter school in Detroit and basically our population was comprised of all the kids that had gotten kicked out of the public and private schools due to their unruly behavior. It was strange. Many of the 8th graders were 16 or 17 years old. And very scary. I could tell you stories. Anyway, I only lasted a year at that job. I was so burnt out. Life around me seemed so dusulatory. So without hope. No matter how hard I tried to show the kids other alternatives and possible future professions theyde be good at, the lure of the gang was way, way to strong. We (staff) had to edit our wardrobe even so as not to display the “gang colors” in school. At that time it was red and black (peoples) and green (folks). And they had to pass through metal detectors every day just to get into the school. What a world that was and probably still is. Anyway, I had to quit… And now although I still have the education of a social worker, I’m uninclined to pursue a job in that field. IF something completely dazzeling or intriguing were to come my way, I suppose I’d think about it. But that’s not likely.
I know I gave you more information than you asked for, but sometimes I get meloncholy thinking about those days.
For now, I’m going to sleep. “Perhaps to dream.” W.Shakespeare.
Not farewell but fare forward, my sister.
Trina.
trini
You keep telling portions of my story With out even knowing it. God love you girl. I admire your tenacity. Stay Strong it's obvious that you are well worth the work.
Patrick