New and scared.Just put one foot infront of the other people keep telling me but when this has become alien to you how do you keep going? I do not know who Iam anymore all I believed in, my values, my ethos have been ripped from me and I do not know who I am so just putting one foot infront of the other is no longer natural and it hurts so why, why keep trying? Trust, or a lack of this stops me moving forward perhaps something like this that is unconditional is the first step?
Hey Tids,
You are not alone.
One foot in front of the other sounds foreign but it'll get better, trust me. Everyone who has been through recovery knows that walking into the unknown is the scariest place on earth. Even if you don't know where you're going or what you're doing, seeking help is the best place to start.
Many of us who suffer from depression or an eating disorder (or any other type of disorder for that matter) has to relearn everything we've been taught to believe, specifically about our habits and the way we think.
Have you seen a medical doctor? Have you talked to someone, family or friends?
Journaling HELPS. I was NOT a fan of journaling because my OCD used to kick in and I'd start editing and organizing my journal pages. Before I knew it, I was soo overwhelmed with ocd'ing my journal I couldn't even enjoy the therapy of letting my thoughts wonder to the page. Then I surrendered and blindly started writing. I wrote random thoughts, lots of questions, lots of angry and hurtful things. I kept writing. I couldn't believe how much I had to say. I always feel better after journaling. Try it.
One foot in front of the other. One breath at a time. One word at a time. One page at a time.