I am not sure if this makes sense or not or if anyone has ever felt this way but earlier today I was trying so hard to not self injure and well I was like having a panic attack my heart was just pounding, I was like shaking and my hands were like clamming and I could hardly breath but that's probably cuz I was cry so hard and so much. Has anyone else felt that way cuz they were trying to stay strong and not self injure? Or am I just weird?
Luvs and hugz
Princess
Hi Princess, thank you so much for sharing your feelings here. I have never felt that way from trying to prevent self injury, though felt that way in a moment of a nervous breakdown. I was shaking and shaking and heart was pounding out of my chest, causing shortness of breath and dizziness. I think that the symptoms that you experienced were from the panic attack, which I think was your body's and mind's way of protecting itself from injury. It is good that you cried out all of the emotions. Did you have something pent up that you were letting out? I hope that you're feeling a ton better now. Sending you tons of positive energy.
Thanks for your post, I know and agree with you that it's good to cry. I was just upset with how my mom was being do crabby, but I am feeling better now. Also I didn't self injure today I stayed strong but for some reason, I really don't know why but I am having trouble giving myself credit for that. But thanks again!
Luvs and Hugs
Princess
I am proud of you that you did not self injure. I have had stuff like that happen to me when I had to fight wanting to self injure. You did an awesome job.
Thanks cassie that makes me feel really good you saying that I did a good job and that you are proud of me. It's not to know that you have been through the same thing, and thanks again.
Luvs and Hugs
Princess
i have felt like this various times, princes, yes it sounds very much like a proper panic attack.
all i can say is it's very normal when you're trying to fight an urge as hard as you did and they do subside.
you've done so well for not hurting yourself, you should be really proud!!
i do wonder, what do you think brought it on though? did anything happen, or was there anything upsetting on your mind?
if the panic attack become more frequent, which i hope they wont, do tell your doctor.
and let us know how you get on, hun!
always here for you!
love
maedi
Maedi, I actually have had many panic attack before but never cuz I was trying hard not to 'sock' and so that scared me a little bit. And my doctor knows about the panic attacks but when I ask him if I could get a prescription to Xanax, for some reason I don't understand he was very reluctant of giving it to me but he was going to give me a small dose but then he said it doesn't come in liquid or chewable and I can't swallow medicine no matter how hard I try I just can't get it to go down. So I just have to feel the panic attack until it subsides which I always hope it subsides soon. I am just glad to hear that you have felt the same way as I did.
I am doing better thanks Maedi
Hi Princess, I am so happy to hear that you didn't self injure, as I know that took a lot of strength. Keep on this positive road and stay strong. Also, please keep sharing with us, we're here to help you in any way that we can.
Yah thanks for all of your kind word and thanks for being there!
Princess... when I was 'socking' really bad and going through rough times and would try to keep myself from doing it I would go thru such bad panic attacks that even the meds I was on at the time (similar to xanax) wouldn't help even if I took double the dose. Most of the times I couldn't stop myself either.
I am so proud of you. You may have had a panic attack (I know my anxiety would be about how I would feel if I didn't do it that the pain would not be released and the guilt I would feel if I did and that I couldn't have both) but you managed to get through not only the panic attack but also the need to 'sock'
Way to go!!!!!!!!!!
yeah, fighting such strong urges can definitely be one of the worst cause for panic attacks i feel!
what kinda helps me is, although it might feel like it at the time, i know that this won't actually really kill or hurt me, it will go away and i will be fine afterwards. yes it is scary but unless i do it myself i won't have permanent damage from it.
hope you're all well!
love
maedi
Princess, you are not alone. Just the other day I was trying not to self inflict harm on myself. I couldn't find the proper tool to do it with and that sent me into a crying panic attack. It was horrible. So you are not alone I feel your pain. Sometimes even the simplest of things can trigger these emotions and it's so hard to stop them. I didn't end up injuring myself, thank god someone came home to me. But you aren't weird and I give you many accalades for not going through with it. You did the best you could with the strong emotions that you had and I give you credit and support for being so strong. It really dose take a lot to deal with. Don't let them get you down girl, I know you are strong, thats why you are here and reaching out like you never could before. you have people here that care for you for who you are and what you've accomplished. Congrats on seeing the emotion through and try some self soothing if you have any that helps you out. Writing, reading, listening to music, venting here, medatation, anything that helps you through. Keep those in mind and always stay strong for yourself, don't let the outside influences get you down, i've been there many times before and when I cut it felt good at the time but i was only harming myself and not giving into my love of self. keep up the good work sweetheart you deserve the positive energy that you recieve here. You are not alone and never will be in this. If you need anything i'm here for you, from what I've read of your posts we are a lot alike so don't be afraid to message me if you need a helping hand.
much love and light to you love
soulkiss
Krisalis, Maedi, and Soulkiss, it's so nice to know that I am not alone and you girls have felt the same way. Thank you girls for being there and posting on my post I really appreciate it, and it has helped me so much. It feels nice to know you girls are proud of me. I like when you girls post your story of when you have felt like that, it's nice when people can relate to me. Thanks for telling me things that help you cuz I will definetly try them. I will also definetly keep posting and reaching out cuz that helps. I know I can stay strong with your support but I can't stay strong by myself.
I actually was thinking about at the time I could just feel the panic attack and let it past or I could cave to the urges and "sock" and then feel ashamed after and well I just felt the panic attack cuz I reach out on here and was able to stay strong even though it was hard, I couldn't do it without you girls. It's nice to know I have you girls there, and I am there for you girls.
Yah that's a very good point I not only got through the panic attack but I also the need to "sock"
Hun I'll try to be here for yo as much as i can, I can definatly relate to your problems and I am so very proud of you. It's nice to know you can turn here for help and be acknowledged for who you are and not labeled. Keep posting, we're all listening. And don't feel ashamed by the socking we have been there, well at least I have and still struggle with that aspect of the urge to, but only find guilt in it's place as well. When you have an attack come on please remember us, we understand more than you think and these feelings could be related to a much deeper rooted problem, i don't want to see it get out of hand for you sweetie.
love and light and keep posting
soulkiss
Soulkiss, I know you will be there for me, it just helps me a lot know you can relate and understand and all of you have helped me get through this. Thanks!
Don’t forget I’m still here for you and message me anytime if you need anything at all. I feel you girl, I know things have been rough lately, they have been for me too, at least you have the courage to post your feelings, me not so much. I can relate to your situations and know you can see them through, you are strong girl, don’t forget that you have many strengths that outweigh any mental health issues you are going through. keeping you in my thoughts
love and light
soulkiss
I have felt that way before too. It is a typical panic attack. During that time even though hard you need to do a game in your head. Start adding numbers in your head. Start with 2+2 is 4 the 4+4 is 8 then 8+8 is 16 and keep going. Dont worry so much if you mess up it is jsut a way to get your mind off what is going on. Picture the numbers in your head and once you keep going and get higher up you have to picture them more and more and focus on that. I will not say it works all the time, my other trick is if I have a pad and pen I will take a piece of paper and start wrinting my alphabet backwards. All these things do is help the panic hopefully not be so bad, and side track your self from hurting yourself. That is the part for me that does not always work. But like I said the panics do not get always full blown if I can stay focused on the numbers and not the panic.
K9
Hi Princess, how are you doing and feeling today? just checking in to see how you're doing.
Puppydoglvr I am doing ok thanks for asking how are you doing?
That's so great to hear Princess! You are so sweet for asking, I'm doing well, ready for the weekend. I'll be working and playing a bit with friends as well. Any fun weekend plans?