i think i'm panicking. nothing happened, i'm just scared of today. i know i would feel better if i went outside for a walk or run, but that itself freaks me out, for no reason. i hate it when i can't figure out what's going on.
i think i feel under too much pressure, from myself. i expect yet i can't or don't know how. it all feels too much, i don't know where to start and where it will end. i can't stand this unknown, it's too much.
maedi,
take a deep breath and just sit. don't think about anything let your mind go blank. this is hard, but can be done. once you have that one second of clear mind, let yourself begin to write. do it on paper or if the writing will get too messy. use the computer and just write. let whatever comes out, out. doesn't matter if it makes sense or not at all. it will help get some of the panic to leave. i used to get overwhelmed like that sometimes and just letting the words flow from my hand to the paper/screen helped. it does work better when you have paper unless you can't read the writing when you are done. my handwriting is not that bad but when i get really panicky, forget about being able to read my writing.
hope this helps you some.
scarlette
The anxiety/panic/fear likely comes from ED or depression or both...I feel this way at times too. I went to the book store yesterday and felt so friggin overwhelmed i had a mini panic attack, couldnt breathe, got all sweaty, heart racing...i had to leave. I have no idea why/or what made this happen...so i understand. Just take deep, cleansing breaths and everything will be okay <3
thanks to both of you.
ive had it various times before but this one kinda came out of the blue.
i just wish my mind could stand still for once, all that thinking, arguing (with myself) and feeling is way exhausting.
took me while but managed to go for a run in the end and the sunshine helped :-) no panic attack while running either, so quite happy with it.