people... man can be also naked is not it? and knowing it and being aware of man nudity, nudity - as symbol, plays with my mind... and when man touches me, or I am sitting beside the man and our bodies are close, I feel sexually aroused... what is it? is it normal? I have NO WISHES or fantasies to have sex with men, just feeling scared and anxious, not to have any reaction... and opposite is happening... I have groin response, and my body starts reacting... :( is it normal and usual for HOCD people? I find sex with men WEIRD!!! NO wishes and no loves, just being nervous to have any reaction and... this way it STARTS when being close... how to stop it? please response, please recommend, please tell me something? do u have same feelings... here, HOCD, do u have same experience or feelings? :(
If being w a guy doesnt make you happy you dotn have to. Its up to you to determine who you are. If you have this much anxiety, it could be HOCD. Just take it slow and STOP CHECKING AND STOP FIGHTING THE THOUGHTS. it makes them stronger. If you have an unwanted thought you can respond w " I dont know and I dont care."