Ughh!! I hate the guilt!! My family are great supporters, but sometimes they make me feel like I can control my ED. I know that it doesn't have a complete hold of me, but it's not like I can just start eating like I always did. They make me feel like I can do something but I'm not, though that is the COMPLETE opposite. I don't really want to get better, adleast not for myself anyways. I'm doing for my family and so I don't have to go to inpatient. But if they were off my back, I would go right back to restricting.. Ughh.. I appreciate any advice.. Thanks to everyone.. Please add me as a support friend..
Hi leelee...unless you WANT to get better for YOU, you will never succeed....whats holding you back from attempting recovery?
It's because of ana.. I've only been restricting for 4 months. I only lost 30 pounds..I only got to 100 lbs.. I'm 5'8.. I want to be 90.. Ughh. I feel like such a failure. That's what's holing me back.. I didn't get to finish what I started. I'm addicted..
Welcome to support groups! You'll find that this is a great group of strong, supportive, wonderful women (and men too). We're glad to have you! Please remember, though, not to post numbers (calories, BMI, weight, etc) as they can be quite triggering for a lot of people. Thanks!
Are you seeing a therapist or other professional for help?
Yes.. I'm seeing a therapist and i'm going to a 5 day inpatient retreat at the end of this month.. I'm hoping the mental craziness will settle.. But I can only hope. Soo. What about you? Tell me your story..