Please help me! I am so f&$&ed up ! I am pathetically suffer

Please help me! I am so f&$&ed up ! I am pathetically suffering from narcissistic victim syndrome in the worst way! I am in a colds sac parking lot right now 1/4 mile from my house! My narc husband thinks I'm off galavanting .. But I never am.. Never was! He accused me of so much stuff that I wouldn't even think of! I don't think he realizes that people DO have good intentions!! But how much can u debate!! My narc husband is home with my three kids.. I can't stop crying and can't stop doubting every move, every though everything anything !!! I don't want to go home but I have my kids milk with me for their bedtime hot cocoa. HE IS MAKING ME FEEL CRAZY. Delusional... And I really turkey think he may be right!!! I am a intense insecure jealous person that kinda is depressed and lazy so I probably just brought this on. My narc husband just got fed up with me and is acting out! Maybe I am crazy and delusional! Thank GOD FOR MY KIDS AND SIS AND MOM AND SMDAD CAUSE IF IT WASNT FOR THEM I WOULD SCREAM OUT LIUD " I'm sorry lord " and just end it!

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Oh hon. I am sorry you are struggling so much! Take deep breaths to help calm you some.

It is a narcs tactic to shove blame on the victims and make them feel low and crazy. Even if you have a little of those traits...you are human. We all do and we aren't perfect.

Can you drop off the milk and spend the night with family? Just to get out and catch your breath

Also, have you tried the exercises on lucyrising?

He will just laugh and make fun of me for dropping off milk without staying . My kids shouldn't be so dependent on hot cocoa anyway right? Just bad night! I swear within the depth of my soul that I am good!

Don't know lucyrising. Googling it now! Ty so very much for caring enough to reach out to me! It means a great deal!