I have always loved sex but being an overweight child took sex for love & it was on my terms which was my protection.
I'm married & lost 125 lbs. My husband changed as hes still overweight and isn't attracted to me anymore. A year & ½ ago I joined A***** M******* & been having a weekly affair. But even if hes not available when I need him I have had one night stands. When I want sex I need it now. Alcohol plays a part as I feel I transferred my food addiction for alcohol & sex. I can go to an AA mtg but am afraid I'll have sex @ a sex addict live group.
I love my husband & wish he would find me attractive as he did when I was heavy. I get so much attention now as well that I've never really experienced to this extent which doesn't help. Can someone please offer some insight on how to stop. I want to be faithful but am so preoccupied with sex I can't on my own.
No instant help I guess. Well must masturbate now but would really LUV to hear from someone b4 I go "prowl" Fri nite...
I don't really know how to help you, but I know someone on here will help you. I'm sorry that you are having to go through all that. Does your husband know about the one night stands, and your addiction? Sorry I don't really know what to say to help you, but this is a big place, and someone is going to be able to help you.
As a women who has cheated on her husband and family more times than I care to remember, my suggestion is to find the nearest SA, SAA, or SLAA meeting and go. Find a woman who has a sober life and ask her how to get it. Do not be afraid to do anything, but rather be afraid of doing nothing. I am 5 years sober and have s Ed my marriage and my life, thanks to SLAA. I pray you find the peace that eludes you and the courage to do what you need to to get it.