I watched her talk about her new book on Oprah a few days ago. I think I'm going to buy it tonight. Has anyone read it yet? I'm hoping to find some sense of hope for recovery one day, by reading it. She was amazing and seemed like such a great person on Oprah.
On another note, good vibes, prayers, etc for me this weekend. Weekends are so hard on me. Are they hard on anyone else? I feel like I engage with behaviors, and depression worse on weekends.
I find the same thing Kristiin. Just try and keep busy.
I was thinking about going to check out Portia's book at the local book store also...will probably pick up tommorow!
I try to stay busy by exercising and going outside for at least a walk as well. It always helps to get in the sun for a bit and clear your head a bit. I'll keep you in thoughts and prayers
Terri
you know i keep keep hearing about this---and im so wanting to buy her book too! i was jsut looking at a magazine with her story on the cover!!! go portia!!!! so cool she is speaking out agaisnt EDs instead of celebrities glamorizing them!!!!!!!!!
love
maureen
I think its great when celebs speak out, but sometimes i question their motives
i sure as heck hope it is a good motive....
as other celebrites sure dont give a flying crap if they trigger the hell out of us....
love
maureen
I think her motive is good, or at least that's how she's coming across. I can't wait to read it!
I think her motive is good. I was so moved by her that I actually (for the first time) talked with someone about it. Next week we will contact a therapist- I'm so nervous! But it felt good to talk about it.
Good for you stang08648!
I think her motives are genuine, at least that's how she came across to me... :) I DO worry about how her writing might trigger those that are already suffering... I think she likely (from what she said on Oprah) did a great job of explaining her experience so that non-sufferers could try to understand... I just know that if I'd read the book a year ago, it would have triggered me horribly... I think I could handle it today. Just my word of caution... ♥
Stang, I think it's WONDERFUL that you're going to see a therapist! I remember how completely terrified I was to do that for the first time, too... I have NEVER regretted that decision! ♥ Life changing! :)
Love,
Jen
Yeah Jen, I picked up the book today at the store, and read the jacket where they give a description of what the book is about and i had to put it down...when i read the amount of calories she consumed i started to compare it to myself and felt like a failure bc her calories are far less then mine. I'm definetly not at a place where I can read about her struggles without comparing them to mine and it triggering me.
i can't wait to get the book in my hands, i am going as soon as the breeder's cup is over and i watch zenyatta run. I saw the oprah episode, and i was so taken with the honesty in which she talked about her struggle, she gives me a sense of hope, that one day i too, can be out of this cycle. I look forward to reading it, i just hope it doesn't trigger me...but i think it will be so informative.
hugs and love
keta
Please excuse my horning in as I am not sure of the nuanced etiquette of the internet and "public" postings but I struggled with bulimarexia for most of my life and now it has driven itself, or I have driven it to become emotional eating. It may sound weird coming from someone who is used to restricting now finding comfort, euphoria and fleeting happiness from consuming what is probably a normal "caloric" intake for a person who has never had an issue with food but I never binge on healthful foods. I want the holy trinity: sugar, fat, salt. I wish I had an impetus to nearly go back the other way and it is awful...and then I eat...and then I say, "Tomorrow, I shall do yoga and eat healthful things!" Guess what? I know...Usually, excercise is my way of purging but NOT this time. It is one thing to be a freak in your head and be skinny to passers by but it is another to see yourself as fat, know you have gained weight and STILL be a freak in your own mind.
Can anyone identify with this?
I have read a text by Portia. I was very early in my recovery and for me it added fuel to my already burning fire. It gave me sooooo many great ideas to continue and further behaviors I was beginning to recover from. I guess I just caution that we are all careful as to what we read and our own intent in reading it. Prayers for you this weekend. I too dislike weekends. Friday nights are pizza night in my home and I cannot eat a piece to save my life. It separates me from my children; that's a bummer for all of us. Plus there are added stressers with everyone home and having to cope with that. Yup. Weekends are hard. I concur. +