knowing we all have such subjective perspectives and opinions, i'd like to ask what you thought, if anything, about portia's interview with oprah today.
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i sat with my jaw to the floor. i realize she said nothing groundbreaking- nor is her book groundbreaking... i was simply stunned by how much of what she said sounded like it came from my own personal inner-script. her candid account and honesty resounded deeply with me.
namaste, my sisterhood.
xoxo
I did not see it, but am now really kicking myself for not taping it as I was very interested after reading a review of her book.
I have friends that DVR this every day. Going to see if I can catch it
****, i missed it too!! Maybe we can catch it online?
Hi Amy,
I watched it. Wasnt sure if i should watch it but when it started i couldnt tear my eyes off the screen. I would say to anyone is thinking of watching it to be a little careful as it can be pretty graphic and upsetting and there is mention of sizes and weight and other things that for many may be triggering so please be cautious....
I had tears in my eyes as i heard alot of my own words and thoughts in what she said and described, the crazzyness, the lonelyness..... but im glad i watched it as i needed a reminder of why i need to stay on top of things with recovery. It took me back to some difficult memories and The darkness she described is not something i want to go back to and not something i would wish on anyone.....
And one more thing....I do believe as she mentions...love heals...I remember that every day i look at my husband who has been a rock for me through my recovery even though he has not been so activly involved, he's mere presence, support, and unconditional love was life saving....
You know what is interesting about Portia's account is that on Ally McBeal (when her eating disorder was in action) she appeared so healthy and Ally (Calista Flockhart, I think) was the one everyone thought was anorexic.... I was a huge Ally McBeal fan and never missed an episode. Loved Portia on that show.
I watched the interview... I was feeling highly protective while watching... It was VERY triggering... I am fortunately in a good place now, but even so, I was comparing my weight and height with hers... :P Sooo many numbers... I really wouldn't recommend watching or reading unless you're completely confident you can handle the numbers...
Still, it was an interesting interview... :) I'm always fascinated when others share about their experiences with eating disorders... The feelings underneath? We have LOTS in common...
Love y'all!
Jen
thank you, darling sisters...
i quite honestly thought that maybe portia's story/ interview *might* be seen by the masses as simply another hollywood twit telling her story... i was touched by her honesty and the fact that she is writing and talking in order to *own* all aspects of herself--- not in the attempt to be somehow groundbreaking.
it did not occur to me that it might be triggering. uuugh. please accept my apologies for seeming so insensitive to that. the idea of *triggers* is very new to me still... and i continue to be unsure what those triggers truly are for me.
my therapist told me that portia would be on the ellen show today. with my hands covering my face as i peeked through the spaces left b/t my fingers, i watched and listened. i was particularly struck by her admission to having used chopsticks to slow down her eating. i went through a period in my life when i used only chopsticks to eat. i somehow needed *small* bites. one at a time with chopsticks seemed the only way for me to get the nourishment into me at that time. i can't explain it really...
as i continue to learn more about myself, startling similarities to others' odd behaviors are surfacing. i thought i was somehow such an anomaly- but i actually am learning that i am quite similiar to most of the textbook aspects of this horrificly confusing illness.
namaste, my sweet sisters.
xo