Step one in Alcoholics Anonymous says, "We admitted we were powerless over alcohol – that our lives had become unmanageable."
The instructions for taking Step 1 are found in the AA Big Book, chapter More about Alcoholism, Page 30, Sentences 7-9:
“30:7We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. 8This is the first step in recovery. 9The delusion that we were like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.”
One of the first things I had to do was admit I was powerless over alcohol. I had to get honest about my drinking. I put a post here http://alcohol.supportgroups.com/sg/alcohol/getting-honest-about-your-dr... that contains alcohol screening tests that can help you with doing this. Once I got honest about my drinking and admitted I was powerless over alcohol then I moved on to taking the others steps necessary to help me recover.