Really finding it hard to cope tonight when will I feel like me again ? Just feel dirty all the time. I'm pushing every one away and feel hurt and angry . I know there are people who have got so much more to worry about then me . But can't help feeling like rubbish
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Its not easy at first and if you are having an outbreak it understandable. The reality is that its all on you as to how you feel. Why do you feel dirty. As others say its a skin condition.
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I feel dirty because I got it through having a one night stand and now I just can't cope with feeling so stupid and angry for putting my self at risk like this I'm a mum of 2 lovely boys and feel like Iv let them down as well
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Things happen. people beat themselves up for having unprotected sex for having one night stands and catching herpes but having sex is a natural human activity. I am probably the most stupid person on this whole site because for 15 years I think I probably never even thought about catching an STD and did not concern me Or worry about using condoms. Im not going to beat myself up. Its manageable it wont kill me. No one thinks any less of me. Even men. it is a virus you can manage it. you haven't let your kids down there is no reason why the relationship with them is going to be any different anyone know less of a mother for what has happened.
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I my self have been silly and have slept with a lot of people and I did it for the wrong reasons and that was to make my self feel good about my self always had a issue with my size and never felt sexy so would sleep with men to feel like I was wanted and most the time I did use something . But a year ago I got my act together and lost some weight and started to feel happy with my self and did't need to use sex as a way to feel good . But I'm still a women and still love sex so met up with a guy and got herpes Witch I'm so cross with my self that when I did get my life together and stop sleeping about I then get this I know I need to stop beating my self up but I'm so cross with my self . Thank you for talking to me it does help me a lot
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@Elaine1996 im the same. my loneliness cause me to have a lot of one night stand or just go with guys he just wanted booty call and I still do it and but now it creeps me out to think about Sllezy the last one was and I’m ashamed of myself for letting him treat me like I was just some person he could shag when it suited him
You know Elaine I felt the same way so it's natural but don't let it continue. There's nothing wrong w being sexually active. You had bad luck. Many people have one night stands. Everyone I've met has had at least one. Find your strength again and start letting people in.
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@Bellabeth thank you . With my outbreaks back to back at the min it’s hard to think I’m ever going to be clear to have sex again and when I am I’m so worried I will pass it on Evan using a condom as I know you can pass it on by skin to skin contact .
Hey can be same for us gents, at least me. I feel your pain
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@lonewalker71 yes that’s very true x
time and acceptance will heal you. sounds really weird but true. and this group helps!