I am new to online support but desperately need to talk to some people who might understand because I'm going through alot of life changes and I think I'm starting to fall apart a little.I dont want to self medicate and sabatoge all the hard work I've done, and I currently am uninsured and cant see a therapist. I actually already feel a bit better after reading some posts, sick as that might soud, at least I know I'm not alone! I have been doing really well for about a year with my depression, anxiety, ocd and then I got pregnant, miscarried and broke up with my boyfriend in the span of 3 months. I must say, I held things together quite well even as I went off my lexipro because of the pregnancy, and never started taking it again. things were really hard but i worked through it by asking for support from family and friends. 3 months ago, however, i quit smoking and gained about 10 pounds! of all that I went through in the past year this has really pissed me off! i obsessively think about my weight and apperance to the point where I dont leave the house or even want to socialize. I cant stop thinking how fat I am and putting myself down. My friends and family think im crazy because to them im not fat butthat really doesnt matter to me when in my head I'm pretty much a disgusting blob who no one would ever want. I dont know what to do. The thoughts dont stop no matter what.I'm starting to wonder if everything I repressed during my recent traumatic time is finally starting to hit me. I really dont want to trigger up my eating disorders of the past over this bdd that I have because logically I know it wont solve anything. what to do??!!! sorry to rant so long, wish I were strong! really hate myself right now!
First off....you are right..you are not alone....
You must know that OCD and depression are actually biological and you can't just talk yourself out of them...I understand you have no insurance right now, but somehow you need to find a way to get on your meds...you are fighting an uphill battle without them..
After that, just take it one day at a time and really learn to love yourself just as you are....
God loves you, others love you and once you learn to love yourself and find some kind of balance between meds and therapy to deal with this dreadfull illness, you will find a good man who loves you too...
Right now get the help you need! and focus on yourself...You are worth it!
I'll be praying for you, Tom
Hi Dolly, glad you found this site & I'm sure will find alot of different options to finding some relief w/what your struggling with. Please try & not be so hard on yourself it doesnt help accomplish what your searching out to do & you have endured alot please give that to yourself. Is their anyone that you can talk with to help you get back on your meds if the meds were helping? A free clinic? Keep looking here & most of all keep talking, we're here for you.
Take care of you.
April
yea,i want to tell you that we are with you ok,we will always be by your side just call on us
but for now just pick up your self and move on,ok,think of what next yes his memory will not go out from you easily but where ever he is he expects you to move on.
this page is not enough i could have told you more but you can send me mail [email protected] yourself, i will encourage and always be around you keep you encouraged ok.
Hi Dolly,
Welcome to the site. I struggle wit bipolar, depression anxiety and OCD.
I was in the same predictament that you are in, no medical insurance or coverage. I have been off my medication now for over a year and I have been having a hard time for sometime now dealing and coping. My husband and I have been having alot of financial issues and it has triggered alot of my problems.
About a two months ago I had to go to the ER b/c I had a profound swelling in my lip (turned out to be a allergic reaction to some allergy medicine), the nurse asked if I had been on any other medicines. I expalined to her that I was on bipolar medicine and but I had been off for sometime now. She referred me to a free clinic in my area that treats and deals with mental illness's. I am seeing a doctor next week to get back on my medication and I also am recieving councleing.
Call your local hospital in your area and maybe some other clinics and ask if there are some free services that could help you get back on your med's. It may seem bothersome at first but It will pay off.
Sorry for the long detailed story I wanted to share it with you. If you need talk just talk to someone I would be more glad to talk with you.
Good Luck in your path,
Shadow