Relapsed again into pornography. I excused it because I thought I could just concentrate on the porn itself without getting triggered by bad fantasies or incestual thoughts. But I can never get into porn without having thoughts like those.
An hour, ago, I made a list of the triggers that keep me in this loop: erotic dreams, fantasies, feelings of control in the face of feeling helpless, feelings of rejection from women, feelings that pornographic fantasies are the only way to make up for loneliness, staying inside to avoid social anxiety, and seeing it as a means to an end (engaging in mental fantasy to orgasm no matter what it is).
How does one become more patient and disinterested in sex and romance?
Any in-depth response is appreciated.
Have you considered therapy to try and disentangle all these thoughts and feelings regarding sex, porn, women, it is a lot to unwrap, however, don't give up. You are dealing with your issues by being open minded and asking for support, which is great, but sometimes therapy can help untangle the issues, support helps you process what is said in therapy.
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@Support Groups I have tried therapy. It has had good effects, but I am now becoming unsure of my therapist.