Had a relapse after work yesterday after being sober for 44 days. Been really stressed the last 3 days and couldn't take it anymore. I haven't been sleeping well and that just makes it worse. Was starting to feel good and get my meds in order but then weds it felt like they just stopped working. Been taking adderall for my adhd and started zoloft about a week ago, took a couple extra the other night but still couldn't sleep. Feel like i have nothing left to fight this with.
It's ok, we all fall down once in a while. The important thing is that you are able to see what you did and try to correct it. There are going to be times that you feel the need to drink but you will be strong and say no. You did good at 44, try abd give yourself a new number. Try one day at a time and pass the 44. I am with you and praying. Get better
thanks, i am finally starting to feel better today but just really tired, lack of sleep. waiting for my therapist to call me back but my friend is coming with me to an aa meeting tonight.
Move forward, don't look back. Guilt, shame and regret will lead to another relapse.
You sound like you are back on the right track with going to the meeting. You are not expected to be perfect in life. Just learn from the situation and move on. If you dwell on the negitive you wont see the positive. Remember all the good things you have ahead of you and keep moving towards them.
Glad your here. Can you attend an AA meeting?
Sorry. Just saw you were going to AA. GREAT STEP IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION! Hang in there!
Thanks, it's been a rough couple days. I did not make it out last night to aa, thanks to the lovely weather. I was able to talk to my therapist last night and that helped me calm down and relax. I am waiting for my friend to come over and she is coming with me tonight to a meeting. I did get out this afternoon with some friends. Today is the first day since Thursday i have not felt very stressed and angry. Time to start over again.
here's my 2cents-I try to say "I" instead of "you should" so here goes-hope you get what you need.
I have to start over pretty much every day.thank god I remember to write my feelings.I've realized that when I'm in a meeting and hear something I need;or don't agree with;I think of what the next right thing would be to say-this helps me hear what I need (in my head,not out loud).I realize that thanks to my higher power,my lengths of sobriety are getting longer, and my periods of relapse have been shorter.I don't even remember the exact date of my last relapse,but thanx to working the progam I have over 2 years!one day at a time-"days into weeks,weeks into months,etc.Take it easy :) even if you take 2 steps forward and one step back you're still 1 step ahead