These last few months I've been really struggling just to maintain everything and it's getting to the point where it's hard for me to leave the apartment and my thoughts are going back to the suicidal parts. I've been i treatment for PTSD for 3 years now but right before Christmas I miscarried and I have not been able to pull my self back up. I've started having serious issues with anxiety and focusing that have kept me out of school and now one of my teachers wants to fail me for attendance even thought I have an A in the class. What do I even say? "Sorry I've been curled up on the floor hyperventalating and trying not to cut my self?" I've already spent a good ten years dealing with all the side effects of PTSD and going through full on panic attacks and flash backs again is not something that i feel like i can deal with. I've made good progress in therapy but I'm just so lonley anymore. My two best friends and my only close family are dead and with the miscarriage I cant even stand to be around people any more. I've been trying to keep on a happy face and go about my day but my emotions are so all over the place I'm scared to leave home. I still haven't learned how to let my self feel sad and grieve over any of my losses so it all just exsplodes out of me as anger or as anxiety. I know this post is all over the place but I'm just so stressed I can't even think. If anyone can help with even just a part of this mess i would be so greatful
Hi..I read your post and my heart goes out to you. I'm sorry to hear you are lonely, I've been feeling lonely, too. My daughter is very depressed and she is blaming me and won't let me talk to her..she also has suicidal thoughts..I was trying to offer her advice but she was not ready to hear any of it..the 6 best ways to feel better are..seek medical or professional help/eat well/get exercise/sleep well/be around positive people and journal..maybe some of those will help you....also know that you are a special and wonderful person and you deserve to be happy!!
I am so glad to have found this site as I've been very stressed to and it is so nice to have someone to talk to...post anytime and I'll chat with you :)
Donna :)
ladies may is ggest that you may want to do some work with charlie our group manager surrounging some of the sexual abuse area...he is vry kknowledge able and has been thru his own hell. just a suggestion that may help with all your going thru
Sorry Fay for all you are going through. I have been through similar things, severe panic attacks, and I just don't wnat to go out either. I lost a baby a few years ago. The pain never goes away but it does lessen enough that you can function. Well, that is how it was for me anyway. I am just having a rough time now to. I was sexually abused for years by a family member and kept it to myself. I got off of drugs and stopped drinking. I was doing so well. Hang in there. We all go through rough times. There are people out there who care.
thankyou all for you help, it's really is nice to have people that acctualy get it for once (that was my first post). Donna, I am trying to work with your 6 ways and working out was ten times more help than i thought it would be : ) Even thought your daughter is mad at you now, she is very luck to have someone that accepts that she has those issues rather than acting like they aren't there. Vicki, thanks for your words just having people around that are also trying to work with similar issues makes me feel so much less alone. Congrats on still being sober. Always good to have something to be proud of
Hi..I'm glad you were able to find some help in what I said..I know you can do it!! I'm rooting for you :)
Take care, Donna
Hello Fay,
I am very sad to know you are suffering,
and I wish you get better soon and to be happy,
as Donna wrote, WE ALL DESERVE TO BE HAPPY !
and so do you.
You are not alone.
Wish you to be happy.