Ruining my life

I am a 54 year old woman who drinks to much sometimes. I don't drink daily only by luck I think.... But when I drink I don't have a shut off. This is ruining my marriage, I am calling some ladac counselors tommorrow to start to get help. I think I have been doing this since high school. I also smke too much when I drink. I am stressed all the time. I need to stop drinking and start talking . needing support

Hi NS,
Welcome to the support group here. I am here for you anytime you need someone to talk with. Sounds all to familiar with my situation. I am a 46yr old woman who drinks to much and my marriage of 25yrs is falling apart just like my life is. Feel free to message me.
Take care and look forward to your reply,
Hugs,
Lily+

Hi lily123,
Thank you for answering my plea for help. My downfall is beer everytime I drink it I don’t seem to be able to stop. I black out most times not even remembering what I have said to people. My husband has tried to be patient but it not easy anymore. We are in marriage counseling now and I am trying to be honest about my problem. It is very embarassing since I am not a child, but have somehow made my husband act like my father at times. I am trying to take it one day at a time then again I only have not drank one day. Wish me luck tommorrow I don’t stop on the way home to buy beer. and yes I do drink and drive isn’t that horrible. I will keep in touch you do the same. Big hug for answering me back. thank you NS

Hi needing support, Good for you on calling some counselors. Have you ever gone to AA - http://www.aa.org/ ? AA is where I went for help. There I found people who understood me and I understood them as well as received support from others. You can do this by taking it one day at a time. Just for today - don't drink. Keep coming and sharing with us. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))

Hi, thanks for answering me. yes I went to AA back about 18 years ago, I even got a five year chip. But alas I thought I could drink in moderation and believe it or not can with wine which I did for a few years. Beer is what gets me I don’t have a shut off with it and black out most times. It makes feel really quilty the next day but again I will stop on the way home to buy some. Yes I do drink and drive I am unhappy and embarassed to say. I am hopeful I will find a good ladac counselor tommorrow who can see me quickly. I will keep in touch, please do the same. here’s a big hug… thank you NS

@needing support:

It looks as though you have successfully completed the First step of A.A. Many people have a problem with the "powerlessness" aspect, but eventually they see the truth.

It's kind of funny that a majority of people believe that as long as they don't drink every day, that they don't qualify as an alcoholic. "We" all know that this is the furthest from the truth. Most importantly is to recognize that alcoholism is a thinking disease, not a drinking disease. I used to drink because I could not live on life's terms and I needed a break from the thoughts that raced through my mind.

Now my medicine is A.A. meetings :-)