Seemingly perfect relationship

Never posted here before, but most of the discussions i've read have helped..perhaps someone can lend me some insight.

My wife and I got married 5.5 years ago after 1.5 years of dating- I was 30 and she was 27. We had both had 2-3 4+ year relationships, complete with years of living with our bf/gf. Our first few dates showed us that this was 'special'- we shared a desire of not having children, our religious views are identical as well as political views, goals, education, finances, family importance, etc, etc.

The first year of the marriage was a little rocky, and im trying to be honest. Ho violence, but she was dealing with some depression and I was overreacting to petty sh*t. We sought counseling and this seemed to clear things up.

At that same time, her best friend's fiance was brutally murdered outside of a bar as a random act of violence. This shook me to my core and I changed overnight. All of the sudden I realized how perfect this woman was for me and how ridiculous it was that I was making her sad by overreacting to BS issues.

Since then (4 years), i've felt that things have been better than perfect- we are the couple that people point to as the perfect marriage. We travel together perfectly, we make each other happy and laugh on a daily basis. We make the same amount of money and have the same financial goals. She supports me 100% and I make it a point to make her happy whenever she starts getting down. She hugs me every morning as I go to work and we go out many nights and enjoy each others company over drinks and laughing.

Unitl 3 weeks ago when she told me she had to move out.
I was absolutely crushed. It makes no sense at all and I still cannot wrap my head around it. We've gone to counselling for 2 weeks, but the last session (last Monday) she said that she is not interested in saving the marriage, only moving past this relationship and mediating the separation....

Her main reason is that she needs her independence. She feels that she cannot truly be herself within a marriage. Also, in the same week leading up to this, she went out with an old recently divorced friend that is 37 and having a REALLY hard time getting back into the game...which really bummed out my wife. She told me "what if she had gotten divorced 10 years earlier??"

There is also a guy she works with that she has a crush on...she thought the crush would burn out, but it's still there. It's only been 4 weeks, but she texts him constantly. After telling the counselor that he was an 'escape' she asked him to go out to lunch with him and explain that they cannot see eash other until we resolve the marriage issues. When she got done with lunch, she told me that her feelings for him were 'overblown' and they really don't know much about each other.

In addition to that, she doesn't feel like she's in love with me anymore...her main complaint is that she feels the same way when she hugs me as when she hugs my male friends...just good friends...not passion.

She said she's felt that we shouldn't be married for some time, but everything just became clear recently. I fear that she is making rash decisions and wants to throw every thing away without thinking through things...

We bought 6K in airline tickets the week before this happened, so i know she didn't feel that strongly at that point...

I don't know what to do...the counsellor is telling me to start working past this, but I din't even recognize my wife as being capable of doing all this without giving me a chance.

Sorry that this was so long...it's been held in for awhile.

I am so sorry, powvix. What you are dealing with is incredibly difficult.

What I would suggest, just for now, is to stop worrying about the WHY and about the WHAT YOU COULD HAVE DONE DIFFERENTLY. Just for now... just for, say, a few days? Maybe a week? Concentrate on you.

You have been thru such a traumatic experience, and sounds like you haven't shared much with your friends. So just for a few days, can you concentrate on you? How you feel, how upset you are, how angry you are.

You can always come back to the "what to do" part...but right now? Your coucnselor is right. There is nothing you can do right now to change this. There may be in the future, but right now, there is not, and right now, you need to take care of YOU.

Wishing you all the best.

Thank you, macunaima- this is the same advice most of my family and friends have given me as well. We have only exchanged 2 emails in the last 7 days, both of which were to the point and not angry or sentimental.

I know I should just give it time to settle and then see what remains, but I cannot get over the thought that if she could end it this abruptly, there is a chance she will have completely scrubbed me out of her life in 3 weeks!

And she may. She may, indeed. You cannot control what someone else thinks, or feels, or does.

What you can control is you. And that's why I think you need to focus on YOU now. Will you hurt? Yes. Will you suffer? Yes. That's a given.

It's how you deal with it that will determine how you go on. I think you've made a good start in asking for help. Keep doing that, and keep track of your feelings.

I feel so bad for you. You have to wait it out and see if she comes back if she does you now have to make sure your not a rebound because this guy from her work leaves her. That's a huge red flag crushing on this guy when shes with you. It obviously has caused huge confusion in her mind. When she comes running back it will be your choice if you want to take her back or not. You will heal with time but that's is it, it will take time. Just focus on you and bettering yourself and enjoy doing the things you like to do. The girl sounds like she doesn't deserve you if she is off running with some other guy and you have been faithful. You may not know it now but later you may find out that your better off. Remember just take it a day at a time to allow your heart to heal!

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