****. Everything turns to ****.
Too much has happened in the last 24hours. I mended a friendship which was anxious and happy, got very drunk and very excited, slept with a guy I know from the bar- totally unprepared leaving me wondering if it bothered him that I was hairy and that he could feel my fresh scars, got too little sleep and eat, met my dad's girlfriend which upset me way more than I thought. Completely broke down and wanted to die, and now I'm seriously scared that my dog is dying.....****
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So today my dog is fine.....seriously?! He scared the crap out of me last night with his panting and feverish eyes.
Anyway, had a horrible night. Couldn't sleep. Thought there was a ghost because I heard stuff.
It makes me so paranoid when my hearing gets overly sensitive, am I hearing my dog breathe in the other room or is someone else breathing in my room?
Ugh. I'm not ready for today
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@Flesjes Hi, and freaking hell, you’ve had quite a ‘Full’ 24 hrs… Today, I’d say, just take it step, by step…slowly! My hearing gets like that at times… It gets so I can hear ‘Acutely’ so, the slightest noise, I hear… Sometimes, It totally ‘freaks’ me out… Have you heard the ‘Breathing In Your Room’ before? Do you believe there are such things as ‘Ghosts’? I personally do and definately ‘feel’ things that send ‘chills’ up my spine… I’m not ‘frightened’ but, at times, I wish I didn’t have these ‘feelings’… I think I’m a little ‘Physic’… I can walk into a house and if there is ‘something’, I feel it straight away and sometimes, I just have to turn ‘back-around’ and leave which, at times, is very embarrassing… Anyway, I’m here if you want to talk… Thinking About You and Sent With Love, Trish x
It is good to hear your dog is fine.
With the ghost, you have to remember that buildings move. When the temperature changes wood and other materials expands or contracts. At night as the house cools off, floor boards may, studs, baseboards, etc slightly move which sometimes causes creaking sounds. This is natural. I'm not saying that there are no ghost but at least some of what you are hearing is just the building settling.
Don't worry about the guy you where with, it sounds like he is a very lucky man. A few life scars and a little natural hair might have been just as much a turn off as it might have been a bother. You gave all of yourself to this guy and if he doesn't appreciate it, then it is time to kick him to the curb.
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@Mark1325 that’s so nice, thank you 
I usually don’t do the one night stand thing… But I’ve known him for a while now. I hope tonight I can convince my anxiety filled brain that there’s nothing to freak out about.
That's so sweet, thank you :)
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@Flesjes Your Welcome… Remember, I’m here if you need to talk and PM me anytime… sent with love Trish x