Sick & Tired of the bs, but sick & tired of spending nights alone

I never talk in support groups anymore, been burned one too many times by judgemental ppl that don't believe in "Just not lest ye be judged." U know, the ppl who claim 2b Christian when they're rly not.
I don't know what 2say abt myself, cuz this is pretty much my very first post since Ive joined. I guess, 2help, I'll put my personals add here, & hopefully I dont get in trouble. lol
I'm somewhere along the lines of being outgoing n shy; social flutterbye to an intimate romantic. I would suppose it depends on the person I am with. The type to be serious about, someone that needs understanding, patience, and to be as well-treated as anyone should be. I have brown hair that I dye every so often, am overweight (working on it tho, or at least trying), and have a few other imperfections that shouldn't bother anyone that's looking for someone that can be fun, energetic, a li'l quirky, and tho not exactly the person u might wanna take home to Mom, still the person u could just MAYBE fall in love with.
My name is Anna. I am visually impaired (myopia/nystagmus), have mild Cerebral Palsy, scoliosis, along with mild anxiety (that can get bad sometimes), Mood Disorder NOS, scoliosis, and PDD-NOS (autism).
I love animals, the outdoors (tho only active when I can be), hanging out with friends (if I had any I could hang with- all my good friends are long distance), and love all types of music.
I love cuddling, anything romantic . . . Love trying new things, depending upon what the "new things" would be.
Looking for a Hispanic or Caucasian male that is between the ages of 30-45 years old that lives in or very near my area. Seeking someone that is willing (and able) to show EMPATHY, not SYMPATHY. Someone who will let me be who I want to be, and not try to change me. Wanting a decent, understanding. honest, sensitive (but not OVERsensitive) man that doesn't play mind games; that knows what he wants and mean what he says. Nobody's perfect, so they shouldn't expect perfection.
I'm looking for someone to email n talk on the phone back n forth with, email/IM, hang with, and see where it goes from there. Not sure what I am looking for relationship-wise anymore, so I guess just looking for friends for now. My life can get pretty lonely, so guess I'm also looking for ppl to hang out with- male or female."
If anyone wants to get to know me better, just send me an IM on Y! msgr (bluenpinklavenders),. Hope to hear from u soon.
Ive been abused and taken advantage of in many ways, and just looking for someone honest.

Hi Babygirlbear, welcome to Support Groups! I am so happy that you are here with us. Thank you so much for sharing. I am praying for you and hoping that you find the love of your life. Know that you will not be judged here by any means, as it's not our place to judge anyone ever. Also, have you tried online dating? I am currently doing so and it's going fairly well. I haven't found that special someone yet, but the prospects look pretty good.

I hope you find what you are looking for...good luck to you! :)

Thanx u two, for the responses. Just used the ad to describe myself a liol better. Ive been in Yahell support groups, and most of the ppl in them either arent very supportive, or they dont talk to me cuz of\ something that happened a few yrs bqck. So hopefully I get the support I need here, & can be more supportive to other ppl as well.

Babygirlbear, we are here for you, you are never alone, and we are here to help support you in any way that we can. Please keep sharing. I look forward to hearing from you.