I took four sleeping pills to try and get to sleep. My doctor is one of those uptight doctors. He prides himself on keeping control of the meds.
Take it from someone who has been on all kinds of meds for over 20plus years. I know all about how the "doctors" who prescribe meds to patients, then say "what, are you addicted"? Then they cut you off and say well, you need to get off of the meds I made you addicted to. This is why I have a severe phobia now with "doctors" and any presciption meds. It is all bull****. The doctors are the ones who get us on these meds and then just let you fall to the wayside when you need more or you feel like **** for being on them for so long. My advice is to just wean yourself off slowly and try to do other things to deal with your problems. I know it saounds way easier than done, however, a life addicted to meds that someone can control your life like that and say when you will feel okay or not is nothing but control and bull****. I wish it were different in this world, but that is the true facts of medication and doctors here in the U.S.A.
If anyone wants any help or advice from someone who has been through all this and then some, please feel free to message me anytime. I myself after not being on anything but a morphine pump implant for severe chronic pain, am now back on anti-depressent meds and anxiety meds. I fought it to hope what I was going through would pass before having to resort to meds. I unfortunatly could not function and had no alternative. That really sucks. Then my doctor said only take the anxiety med if I really need it. She gave me 20 Ativan pills. I do not see her till over 30 days. I really need to take them everyday like triple but am not for fear of running out. Already it has become a problem and I am just on them for less than a month.
I wish everyone who is in this situation a way out and to find peace and strength that you can overcome all things.
I am here for anyone who wants my advice or support.
Take care of you and I hope to hear from some of you soon!
Hugs,
Lily