So after dating an amazing old friend for two months, things got hot and heavy and I had to drop the truth about my herpes situation. He seemed ok with it, until we had sex for the first time this past weekend. Then the **** storm of worry came up and today he ended it. People can't handle it and I understand. However, it has made me feel less than. I did feel suicidal for a moment. heavy **** and I wonder if I will ever get a real chance at true love. it's hard enough in this world being a a flawed human but to carry an STD that many fear like AIDS, is hard to deal with sometimes. God give me the strength.
His loss, don't blame yourself for his inability to cope with Herpes, that is on him. Again, his loss.
You will find the strength. It's both out there and inside of you.
I feel dirty and tainted but there are people out there, like you and others on this forum who know how I feel, and that's where I find my strength, knowing that even though you're all strangers, we're still connected by this virus as soppy as that sounds.
But, not all people will be afraid. I am lucky enough to have a boyfriend who is accepting and still finds me sexually attractive. They are out there, you just got to kiss a few frogs first before you find your prince who will see you as a princess no matter what.
As CKarma said, it's his loss.