So I lapsed today earlier about 4 hours ago. I was doing goo

So I lapsed today earlier about 4 hours ago. I was doing good for the last 2 days without a diaper but I wear one at night just in case since I've had problems before and I woke up in a soaked diaper and didn't remember or wake up to try to go to the bathroom like a normal person. I changed but can't hold it again. Makes me really hate myself a lot of the time and now that feeling is around again...

Is this caused by a medical condition, have you spoken to a doctor about this?

@CKarma Yeah already tried meds and also I did talk to a doctor about it. They didn’t find anything wrong with my nerves even though I do have an unusual pain shoot through my nerves on occasion which I mentioned.