So I think I have finally given up on my bf. It's just a constant cycle of relapsing and getting clean. I just can't take it anymore. Sketchiness started a couple days ago. This time I didn't wait for him to admit it. I blocked all contact with him. I love him. I really do. I just can't picture dealing with this for the rest of my life. My heart is broken and I miss my best friend. But I have to start looking out for myself. Just a ****** ****** situation
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Noooo way. I'm so sorry to hear that. You're right, it's a really awful situation. I'm in an even bigger mess than I was before. Now there are family disputes, I feel like his side of the family is slowly turning our child against me, they all hate me because they think I'm on his side. Silly ridiculous **** from people who don't get it. I want him to get help. End of story. He's about to be required by the Marchman Act. Fine by me. But just because I wasn't the one who filed it, I'm now "on his side". I'm so tired. I don't want to go through this anymore.
@Kcapote I’m so sorry! Sounds exhausting. My stuff doesn’t feel right but I gotta see if I can be happier with out him. It’s so hard but he just won’t change. The last thing I ever wanted was to give up on my best friend. I feel lost with out his presence. And guilty like I am abandoning him. But I have to start putting myself first
I'm sorry you're going through this
Letting go the hardest thing to do. In your heart you won't. In your life you are doing the healthiest thing. Throwing logic at this won't ease the pain. I know I'm suffering it right now. How you feel is very real and looking at the bigger picture was good. Nonetheless it's gut wrenching. Your feelings count and it wasn't fair. You had to follow rules he didn't. You gave more than you gor back. Your needs went unmet. You're angry as hell too and rightfully so. There's no law against wasting someone's time. What you went through feels criminal. He's stuck in his head plain and simple. There is nothing you did wrong to cause it. Those peoblems were there before you. So cry, sceeam, blame, gnash teeth, and break ****. Ride the grief Rollercoaster until you get calm again. Better to get it out now then have it show up at the wrong time.
I don't think you should ever give up on someone, especially if you care about them. You may not be able to live with them anymore, but they should still know that you are available when they need someone for help, especially when they want the help to kick this awful habit! I did that for my son, but unfortunately he lost his battle with heroin last weekend. He just didn't want to get clean, for many reasons, mostly sadness due to the loss of his brother 10 months ago. And if I can help just one person kick their drug habit so their family does not have to go through what I am, I will. I truly hope things work out for you and your BF.
@tlbellino I try to be there for him. But he doesn’t want to get better. He’s not making any moves towards getting better. He literally stole my car last night and then swore up and down I gave him permission to take it. He’s dragging me down. There’s nothing left for me to give him yet he just keeps taking and taking. I broke my ankle and wrist abt a month ago and am out of work with no health insurance and going completely broke and he has stolen money from me. I can’t even trust him with $10 to run to the store for me since I can’t drive. It’s a nightmare. And it’s time for me to put myself first