I am so proud of myself. Last night I went to have some martinis with an old friend. For me, alcohol is a huge trigger for me. Binging and purging is almost almost how my nites of drinking end. We ordered nachos and I ate a bunch, when I got home I had a bag of dark chocolate covered almonds, a couple spoonfuls of ice cream, and some peanut butter. At that moment I thought, geez Ive gone this far, do I want to keep stuffing my face then purge? Then I thought, no. I need to gain weight, This junk food will look good on me. (When I weighed myself that morning I was lighter than I have ever been and I didn't feel proud. I felt feeble and boney). I thought when I woke up this morning I would be full of self loathing, hating myself for leaving all that junk in my body. But I woke up this morning and felt happy. I looked at my legs and they are still little sticks, my hip bones still protrude. I'm still thin, I enjoyed some treats, I don;t have the after taste of bile in my mouth. It's ok to indulge. yay!
jasper46, now how cool is that, i'm proud of you to hun thats great. and the morning after good ok feeling fantastic! well you just proved something to yourself now did'nt you. you go girl!
Congrats! That is a great accomplishment. You were able to enjoy yourself and not freak out about it. I gave up drinking also because it always causes a binge. Im excited to re-introduce a couple cocktails here and there without it causing a binge. I did have dessert with dinner and didnt freak out last weekend- def a huge accomplishment there.
Thanks for sharing :)