So the anxiety i feel is starting to subside but the thought

so the anxiety i feel is starting to subside but the thoughts are not. and its scaring me even more because does that mean I'm now okay with this? i don't understand. i just want this to all go away. i've been straight my entire life, always loved guys, and i just feel like i'm losing myself. i started medication so i think thats why the anxiety is fading but why won't the thoughts go away with it?

Big missunderstanding of how anxiety in OCD works. Lack of anxiety or any negative emotion or reaction towards a thought is not prove of plessure.

You are not your thoughts.

Please watch the videos of Eddy Defoe and/or Mark Freeman

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e15lyOiRDFc

From Anxiety & Panic Disorders to Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)