So this might be a little long. Sorry, you don't have to read this. Most people don't but thank you if you do. So I joined this about a month or 2 ago. I have been through stuff that I've never dealt with and I thought it might help. It kinda has. There's people who have worse problems than I do. I pretty much just "whine and cry" about my problems. At least that's what people say. I used to tell my friends and cousin what was happening. They got curious when I suddenly got sad and when I stopped eating or I started eating less. I'm not sure when they started getting worried. I'm afraid though. I've never told people as much as I said on here. I was told that if I don't stop what I'm doing I'll have to go to a treatment place. Its somewhat true but I got mad after that. You can't just get better. It takes work. Once I start something it tends to keep going. If I was told I'd be here I would of thought they were crazy. I'm the type of girl that's shy but people talk to me cause I'm nice. I always smile and laugh and I brighten peoples day. Now while some of that stills does happen its less and less. Its like I put on a fake smile. I hate this. Its stupid and I don't wanna offend someone but I promised that I wouldn't be like this. Watching my weight, take what people say to heart. Stuff like that. What I am going through is nothing compared to others. I was bullied as a kid in school. Nobody knows that but then I moved and started getting cyberbullied in my sophmore year of high school by people I didn't even know. I'm sorry about what everyone is going through. I know its the worst thing ever. Its really hard.
"smile and laugh and brighten peoples day"- Keep it up :)
@aks you got that right!
Don't be hard on yourself just because others have problems as well. If anything draw strength from those whom are in the same position as you. You are beautiful the way you are. People aren't your hardest critic you are. Try to do things that wont trigger your self measuring. Do positive and healthy things that keep your mind in a happy place. Read, draw, write stories about anything in your imagination. Help is absolutely necessary, but it is hard when your on the edge. Parents are best to help you back away from the edge. Talk to your mom in a conversational matter and ask her if she dealt with bullying or body shaming when she was your age. Try to gain insight on your struggles. It makes it easier to except when you have a reference. If people keep harping on what is wrong with you and feeling sorry for you it makes it harder to deal. Keep in touch on here. We all want to help. Especially because you are a good person whom deserves hope <3
@SpoonfulOfHanii you are right. you are your own worst critic. learn to love yourself.
@bullheimer yes people grow big muscles with cyber-bullying.
@bullheimer I’m actually from Florida. They do have a law about cyber bullying.
@bullheimer I’m not sure where you got the rape part from but ok. And I can’t just go from hardly eating to having half a gallon of milk and instant breakfast. I probably should have said that the people that bully me are mostly all guys except for 2. They all live where I do but in a different city.
For the eating disorder, i suggest taking ensures. It is a nutrient dense drink. You receive a days worth of vita mins and nutrients without consuming heavy food. Start there and you appetite will surely increase. It is a light drink so you wont feel to heavy afterwards. It will trick your body and keep you healthy.
@SpoonfulOfHanii that stuff actually does work. that is how I did it. good advice.
@aks @neet @SpoonfulOfHanii @SunnyTomorrow @homesickmachete @aurora15
Thank you so much for your comments. It really means a lot. What each of you said has helped even just a little. I've gotten help from some people but most just said to figure it out on myself which isn't very easy so thank you!
@lolobug just keep trying and hopefully you will find your answer.