Sometimes, like now, I'll just breakdown and cry in my room...knowing that my mother is right and that I'll never have a girlfriend. That I am unworthy of love.
You know what I no longer think of it as abuse. For I deserve it, no one else does though. And if anyone needs help or just someone to talk too I would happily help without question.
Have an amazing day! :)
I'll take a deep breath here, because your situation reminds me of what mine was, and that triggers me a bit.
Is there a reason why your mother says you'll never have a girlfriend? That's a terrible thing for a mother to say.
@InMyDreams
I’m sorry about triggering you that was the farthest thing from my intentions. Next time I’ll place a trigger warning.
Also my mother seems to have a narcissistic personality just like my grandfather. I don’t want to judge. But it seems very prominent. I know it’s a disease, but the pain hurts as I’ve only known this feeling.
Trigger Warning
The only ways I know how to deal with is is through self harm, starvation, and music.
I hope you have an better day than me.
My mom blames the to be divorce on me and I know it's true...I'll hang on though no matter what. Even if all moments are constant agony. I will still radiate love for all and optimistic assurance.
@MCRandBVBsavedmyLife Hopefully, even if it was your fault (I have no details on what happened in your marriage), you will learn from your mistakes, move on and find another woman to love who will love you back…
*Hugs Everyone in this Post*
Or one who is deserving of finding their perfect match.
:) I wear all black does that count? But seriously thank you for the kind words. It's just hard when your mother, someone that you are supposed to look up to, validates your fears.
@MCRandBVBsavedmyLife My father has been telling me I’m worthless and ugly my whole life. So I understand, but I try to keep faith that someone will some day love me.
We can only know what you tell us. But what you're describing sounds like an extremely abusive relationship. For your own sake, it sounds as if you need to extract yourself from that situation - and then get therapy to try to undo the damage. Do you have anyone that you can turn to? Family, friends, a school counselor or teacher, a pastoral leader? Anyone?
@InMyDreams
I have no friends and don’t want to be a burden on my family. My music is the only thing that keeps me away from the knife. trigger warning
I have already promised myself that I’ll never kill myself. However I almost did three months ago. (Before the promise, and promises mean everything to me.)
@kaamini
Thank you for the kind words. I will never give up and hope everyone finds someone! 
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It happenes more often than you think. Parents make mistakes too. My way out was - school! I went to university, got my diploma and ran to life. It is a hard way but effective. You willl never go away completely, but you will far enough to live your life normally. Just hang on there <3
Your mother is being callous. I'm sure what she said was perhaps in heat of the moment. But what she said is certainly not true.
I'm a grown man and I still remember my parents saying things like "what's the matter with you" or "can't you do anything right?" or "you're good for nothing" or "why can't you be like your older brother?" ... but worse of all: "you're a worthless piece of sh-t, do you know that?" It may be true, but they didn't have to tell me that! Talk about having your feelings hurt!!!
@Meezkite We need to stop allowing others to rob us of our future. Kaamini is absolutely right; we need to change our thought life & our words. Words are more powerful than you can imagine. If it weren’t true, why would your parents’ words still be bringing you down today? Speak positive affirmations about yourself ALOUD. During a very bad time of my life when even my father turned against me, I read Psalm 30 along w/other Scriptures such as “When my father & mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.” (Psalm 27:10). It may be a while before you feel the positive affects of doing this, but the journey of 1,000 miles begins w/the first step. Leave that destructive emotional road you’ve been on & DECIDE to take the highway to better & healthier living. Your patience & perseverance will be rewarded. I wish you the best.
That is kind of like how my mom is... She says stuff like that...But I think we have to find our own sense of self and fall in love with who we are first and have a supportive group of people to help us ...
Why don't you try online dating, you never know it might work out and I'm sure that there is someone out there for you..