I drank last night. I only had 4 beers, but I am still disappointed. My mom has been sick for several years now with COPD and now has Emphysema as well. She has been in and out of the hospital for the past several years. We took her to Hospice yesterday afternoon. I just really didn't have the strength to fight the urge. My ultimate goal is still the same, to stop drinking. I can't let this hold me back. Back to Day 1 again...:(
ANlMALLVR4, I am so proud of you for getting back on track, I think that's so incredible. I know that you can do this and make it through to the other end of it stronger and better then ever before. I am so very sorry for what your mom is going through, and I know that you are so strong and there for her, because you are such an amazing person.
Have you ever considered attending a local support group? That can be helpful in keeping you on track. Please know that I am here for you and here to help you in any way that I can.
Thank you so much Puppydogluvr. I almost didn't post what happened because I was embarrassed and didn't know what people would think. I have and am still looking for a support group or similar in my community. I attended an AA meeting once, but I find it too religious for me, so I am trying to find something else. Thanks again for your support.
Please don't ever feel embarrassed here with us, this is a very safe environment and no one ever judges. Please keep sharing with us and know that we are always here for you. Let me know if you need any help researching local support groups.
This site may be helpful, as there is a phone number that you can call for help and guidance (they may be able to help you find local support groups); http://www.myaddiction.com/alcohol.html.