Stres rond up fealin gilty i am all gilt gult ovr yrs iv had

stres rond up fealin gilty i am all gilt gult ovr yrs iv had bidin up finly xspldin in my hed
all whys
why didn i tak betr car of mom
why did i not stp her frm getin demsa/alz
why did i not tak betr car of my dad mayb e he wud stil be hear
why did i carz mt cuzn sush a horbl strok i did if only i tk her meds 2 her tht nit i no her sosn z fumin it me dnt no if thy still r i no shud of wak 3 mil ther 3 mil bac bt my xsu wz coz it wz dk nite cold it wz
i no few pele still dry drty on me ovr tht strok i carz my slf in cludd i am
why did i not tak betr car of hol famly wish i shud of dun i shud of bt y slf lst a lot or
no 1 can h a t e me thn i htd my slf so mush i feal lk i shud of bean hnfg for wot i dun or bt on deth row for wot iv dun i shud of tk betr car ofe vry 1 i feal lk a vil xsus of a hun bean
moms dm/az nevr goin 2 get betr if only id tk betr car of er
sorry i need aner rant 2 day thys is plase 2 do it i no but still im sorry

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Honey please don't blame yourself for anything going on with your mother she has a disease and you have been doing the best you can right now. I think that you are very burnt out right now and you need to try and give yourself more ME time and relax. This is what happens when we take care of sick family members it does take a toll on us too. Sending hugs to you. xo

@Jennipain thnx i no i need me tim