I am a 44 year old female who's addicted to meth for past 10 years. Recently got into alot of trouble that might land me in prison for a while. I have no children nor am I married. I've always worked and took care of myself until I got on meth 10 years ago and recently found that I needed help. When looking on the internet for others with the same problem I found this web sight thought what the heak it can't hurt to join I have nothing to loose at this point so I hope im in the right place to seek others to talk to who suffer the same addiction I do some one to talk to and share my story with would be greatly appreciated. I've lost all of my friends the one's I had that use well in the end I realize they wasn't really friends to begin with. Cause when I got into trouble where were they not there to talk to or try to help me. Any one who could talk to me and share there story with me and me with them would be greatly appreciated. I've got to the end of my rope and am trying to get clean. Just need a friend to talk to please if there's any one out there who shares this same addiction and has any information on recovery reply to me. I'm very desperate to get clean and am currently awaiting rehab but need to talk in my process of waiting. Thank you Janie
Hi Janie, Wleocme to SupportGroups.com . I see that you are waiting to go to rehab. That is good that you are going to do rehab. Have you gone to any NA http://www.na.org/ meetings? If not, then I suggest checking those out also for help and support. I don't suffer from Meth addiction myself. I am an alcoholic in recovery. Keep taking it one day at a time and try to make a meeting. Keep sharing and letting us know how you are doing. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))
Thank you very much-yes i'm attending N/A dailey and am also in a 12 step program that im working on step 2 currently. I have not got a sponcer yet cause i'm any day leaving to go to rehab. I have 12 days clean now knowing that I can not be around the people that use or those day's are GONE! When browseing last night and came across this site I decided to check it out. I'm also a alcoholic just sober for 15 years. I remember when my councilor told me one time that I was not gonna stop drinking until I lost the desire, I just could not figure out that simple little word "DESIRE" until I found it, and oh my god I kicked myself it seemed so simple after I found the desire. Unfortunatley, it's not been so simple with this meth crap, but I have learned to take one day at a time to not dwell on the past nor stress on the future just to live for TODAY! And I have came this far and no it's far from over I do realize It's gonna be a long hard road after I got past the point of witdraws from the needle I started seeing and feeling a difference. Not to say that I dont still crave it but I'm past the addiction to the needle that was a tough one. I layed balled up in a little ball in my bed for 3 day's praying to god to make me well just help me past the withdraws of the needle it lasted 3 day's an was gone. So thank you for your post and i will keep you updated ok and good luck with your alcohloism how long have you been sober? Hang in there and keep that desire to stay sober it's a much better life. (Hugs) XOXO
Well, I havnt been on here in a while but wanted to update you on how im doing. I am currently clean 19 days thank god. When I first posted on this sight I was still useing and wasnt sure if I truley was ready to quit, I now am clean 19 days with the help of NA and outpatient treatment. I have been an applicant for drug court for 4 weeks and am very proud to say I passed my first UA yesterday so I will plea into drug court next week. The grace of god is what saved me and the fellow members of NA. I don't no how my Mom has been able to stand by me through all of this with my behavior some times so bad that im ashamed to say. But i have gained 30 pounds now and am truley very happy. The legal system did me a very big favor by fileing a motion to ravoke my probation because it scared me so bad that i got clean.
Janie thats awesome! Keep us posted on how court goes. I was addicted to meth as well been clean going on 3 years. I wish you the best.
hynita, I havn’t been here for a while but, thought I’d up date you if your still there. Today I’ve been clean almost 90 day’s. I plead into drug court on Jan. 12, 2011. WOW what a difference. I have always heard of all of these horrable stories about that program. But, today I must say It truley saved my life. I don’t no if you no any thing about it but there’s 5 phases to it and I’ve already went to phase 2 about to go to 3 in April. I’m doing wonderful and very glad to be alive and clean. Thanks for your concern. Life is great clean. I lost my Grandmother after being clean for 30 days. I told her on my 30 days that I was clean an 4 days later she passed. God works in mysterious way’s. I was so thankful that i was able to make that amends before she passed. Has given me great strength along with my sponsor. Hope all is well with you. I was looking at 10 years and that was a big eye opener for me I no I wont use ever again with god in my life and continueing to do the next right thing. Thanks
Hynita, Thank you. Today i have 20 days clean and am feeling better every day. I am just waiting to plea into drug court next week and am so excited about it. I thank god that i found the way to get clean cause today I was informed that im gonna be a great aunt soon. If i was still useing that would be horrable to not be able to see my nephews baby since i raised him he's the child i never had. But, still my baby. Thanks for reading and i will keep you updated. Way to go 3 years-how'd you do it?
Congrats on going to be a aunt that is awesome! You asked how I stayed clean for 3 year well I myself got into trouble was cought with 3 ozs was facing 3 years in prison and that is how I changed. Being in jail was a wake up call a big one. While doing meth I was a mental mess as well. After being clean for awhile all that got better. So I just changed cause I wanted to I honestly never ever want to do it again. Ive never been happier.