The last few days I've been doing so good but today I'm really struggling so I needed to log in and share.
A little over a year ago I was diagnosed with toxic mold poisoning. I was so sick that the doctors thought I had lupus or thyroid disease. Everything hurt so I couldn't work out and I was always nauseous and tired. It was a great excuse to fall completely back into my bulimia. I felt so sorry for myself, like I was under attack from my own body. I moved about a month after I was diagnosed so that I could start getting better and within a few months I felt almost normal again. The doctor warned me at the time that I would have flare ups but I didn't know they would make me sick like this again. It feels the same as it did when I was diagnosed all day long and I don't know how long it will last. I was so hungry so I made myself eat but now the nausea has been driving me bonkers for hours. I know if I purge I will feel worse and it will take my body longer to get over this flare up but I still want to BAD. I've been playing on the computer since my son went to bed a half hour ago trying to distract myself. I thought sharing here might take some of the power out of the compulsion too.
Thanks for being here guys